Drowning

(album: Ghosts - 2022)

All my darkest thoughts have risen from the grave
If I let them in I'll never let them leave
I've been talking to you, tryna make ends meet
If I scream it louder, will you answer me?

I'm drowning, I'm drowning here
I'm drowning, why won't you save me? (Yeah)
I'm drowning (it's kinda like), I'm drowning here (everything that you ever told me)
I'm drowning, why won't you save me? (Was wrong, hah)

Where were you when I was down and out on the ground and then drowning?
I been in over my head, tryna hold my breath underwater
Man, the thought of suffocating, fucking hate it, it's awful
But I'd rather asphyxiate than run back into the slaughter
We the sacrificial lambs of this shit, fuck a label
Spend a couple hundred grand just to stand in this bitch
On my own, independent, now I own every record
And I'm packed with the vengeance, doing damage again, damn
I was down bad, ramen noodles in my pad
Till I got myself a bag, never famine again, feast
I'ma put my fam in a Benz, we send a couple bands to a friend
But enemies feel the wrath and repent
Let's pretend that everything I know disappeared
Where the hell would Luke then even go?
I done spent so many years in the cold to get here
On my own, still the devil's in my ear, and I fear for my soul

I'm drowning, I'm drowning here
I'm drowning, why won't you save me?

Out of everybody wishing they were dead
How many would put a pistol to their head?
Yeah, I remember sitting on my bed, suicide note
Thinking it's the end when I'ma pull the trigger
Hell or heaven, where will I go? Hell if I know
Got the police at the door, wellness checking my home
People texting my phone saying don't put that Tec to my dome
Fuck 'em, y'all don't understand what the heck I been going through, yeah (true!)
I'm going off the deep across the sea
Been sinking like the Boston Tea, I'm drowning
Don't talk to me, my life has been so awful, please
I'm going down and then I'm off to sleep
Jumping off of the deep end, all my life had demons
Police on my block man, I used to get beat up
Once again, fuck friends, I don't need 'em
So I stayed at home every weekend
After loneliness, rose like a phoenix
And I grew to be so brutally wild, not a child anymore
What the fuck you gonna do to me now? Going down
Shooting two to three rounds, it's a eulogy you foolery clowns

I'm drowning, I'm drowning here
Someone save me