Sideways

(album: October Skies - 2015)

You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There are no words to describe it
In French or in English
'Cause diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you
These feelings won't go away

I'm talking success, wish that it could suck less
Dollar out of 15 cents but I got a buck less
Been a starving artist like fuck it I need some food
I'm just try not to get screwed, 'cause the industry's a fuck fest
And I'm a ruler that got a chip on his shoulder
The size of a boulder really just a price I'm getting older
If I told ya I hold the keys to my destiny
Would you say I'm the answer and tell me would you just question me
And fuck your scrutiny like it's just you and me
And I don't like the hand they dealt, it's not suiting me
And I remember back when [?] recruited me
But now I'm moving in, on ecstasy I cause a mutiny
Yeah, it's my time so I know you're late
And I got hunger for more, so I don't wanna wait
I know the past but really I don't know today
And now I understand why these feelings won't go away, yeah

They've been knocking me sideways
They've been knocking me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knocking me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away

Don't wanna fade away, fuck it just tryna pave the way
The Monday of September 'cause everyday is late for day
And I been focused like Ford, so every time I record
I'm thinking damn, well I just can't effort to
To lose another friend, to fight another fight
To work another day, stay up another night
And I was left behind so now I'm not living right
We all get a chance to shine but now they not giving light
At least not to me, I'm feeling like they got to see
The potential I had like the parents who adopted me
Now I walk around my 9 to 5 so awkwardly
My smile's in denial like a trial they been mocking me
At least they got to be, I think this life is got to me
But I should feel blessed 'cause at least I got a pot to pee in
And really I don't know what to say
And now I know why these feelings won't go away, yeah

They've been knocking me sideways
They've been knocking me out lately
Whenever you come around me
These feelings won't go away
They've been knocking me sideways
I keep thinking in a moment that
Time will take them away
But these feelings won't go away

You know it ain't easy
For these thoughts here to leave me
There are no words to describe it
In French or in English
'Cause diamonds they fade
And flowers they bloom
And I'm telling you
These feelings won't go away