I Need Control

(album: Perfectionist - 2020)

Every time that I try to speak
It feels so calculated
If I say what I really mean
It's like you see me naked
Not a word until I was three
The doctors were elated
Thank god there was nothing wrong
And everything's fine

Always on the edge of my seat
Never the right position
Check the doors are locked, one two three
Flip on and off the switches
Something bad could happen to me
House will burn if I didn't
Make sure that the stove was off
Now everything's fine

I need control
I need control
What will I do
If I lose
My mind
Hurt someone else
Or myself
I'm terrified
These crazy thoughts
They won't stop
Oh my
I feel the worst in me
Better tread carefully
(I need control)

Everybody please disappear
I'm feeling claustrophobic
Way past capacity in here
Hard to be easy-going
Suffocating's my biggest fear
I can't breathe in this clothing
Leave before something goes wrong
And everything's fine

I need control (Oh oh oh ooh)
I need control (Oh oh oh ooh)
What will I do
If I lose
My mind
Put someone else
On myself
I'm terrified
These crazy thoughts
They won't stop
Oh my
I feel the worst in me
Better tread carefully

What will I do
If I lose
My mind
Put someone else
On myself
I'm terrified
These crazy thoughts
They won't stop
Oh my
I feel the worst in me
Better tread carefully
I need control

Make a mistake
I'll go insane
What can I say
I'm a perfectionist
Slave to my brain
Circle the drain
What can I say
Get me a therapist
(I need, I need, I need, I need)

Get me a therapist
(Get me a therapist)
I need, I need, I need, I need
I need, I need, I need, I need
I need, I need, I need, I need
I need, I need, I need (Control)
I need, I need, I need, I need
I need, I need, I need, I need
I need, I need, I need, I need
I need, I need, I need (Control)