Loneliness

(album: Self Medicated - 2020)

[Jelly Roll:]
You ever heard a sinner's prayer?
You ever had life come and shatter your dreams?
You ever heard a sinner's prayer?
You ever talk to God and then it turned into a scream?

The weed isn't helping, the liquor don't work
I done did all I can, I'm still feeling this hurt
I been trying to change, I still feel like I'm cursed
Will the drugs or the stress end up killing me first
It comes and it goes, it's all I know
No matter what all the problems just go
Roll up the smoke, chop up the dope
Been trying to fill up this hole in my soul
I'm on this lonely road, I need the Holy ghost
Lord, won't you come and save me?
I'm such a broken soul, I feel like no one knows
Stress I'm dealing with lately
It's my last shot for me to save my spot
And they don't make pain pills to help the pain I got

Loneliness is all I've ever known
It starts to take it's toll
A heart can turn to stone
Loneliness is all I've ever known
No matter where I go
I'd rather be alone

The drugs in my system are taking my spirit and breaking me down
I drown in this liquor and scream at the mirror when no one's around

[Rittz:]
Drank so much Crown
Drained my account
Used to pray, I need faith these days
I pray I pass out
Finally got to that tipping point
I don't really care about this rap shit no more
Most likely to get divorced before next year
Better yet, wind up dead instead
Hanging suspended from the extension cord
I pray to God, quit toying with me, kill me please
My body feeling like a wilted leaf
I can't keep down food, my liver protruding
Through my ribs, drinking liquor like it's New Years Eve
But it's Monday, I'm breaking one shade
I really wanna take my anger out on someone's face
It's funny, all the money I just saved is gone, someone's dead
It got swept underneath the rug with some blood stains
I never listened when they told me it's a dumb dream
The industry is full of greedy cash
Adults dumber than they were when they were young teens
Don't underestimate the ignorance
I used to want to pull the trigger then
But I'm sober now and I'm feeling so good
Don't pull it, don't pull it
Only thing getting stuck in my head is this Jelly Roll hook
So I know

[Jelly Roll:]
Loneliness is all I've ever known
It starts to take it's toll
A heart can turn to stone
Loneliness is all I've ever known
No matter where I go
I'd rather be alone

The drugs in my system are taking my spirit and breaking me down
I drown in this liquor and scream at the mirror when no one's around