Why Am I Alive Now?

(album: My Back Was A Bridge For You To Cross - 2023)

Why am I alive now?
I don't want to be witness
Seeing all of this duress
Aching of our world

Why am I alive now?
Why am I alive?
I don't want to feel this
Aching color of our world

Why am I alive now?
Watching all this going down
All the animals around
Watching Nature swoon and sigh
Watching all the water dry
Watch the sky fall to the Earth
Birds and insects looking for, for a place to hide

Why am I alive to watch this duress?
Why am I seeing this stress?
Hide me from my disease

Why am I alive now?
Seems there's nothing left to hold
Except keep trying to accept

Hour after lonely hour
Collecting my mind
How did I arrive here?

I don't know much of anything
Except that you will take my life

I don't know why, I don't know why
I don't want to see your face
Meeting me when it's too late
Many people falling
Many people sighing

Once everything was a part of me
How did I come to be?
Now everything's gone to the floor
And all I ever want is more

Feel the trees begin to leave
Smoke swallow each mountain side
A rail of tears leads to the sea
No more footsteps in the sand
All our memories are sinking
Into un-living

I don't know
I don't kn-kn-know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't kn-kn-kn-know
I don't kn-know
I don't know
I don't know
Why am I alive here?
I don't know much of anything
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know
I don't know why I'm alive now!
I don't know why I'm alive now!
I don't know why I'm alive now!
I don't know
I don't know why I'm alive now!