Heartbeat

(album: Open Book: A Memoir - 2020)

Didn't know that I was lonely
Don't know when I lost my way
Was just trying to survive
Tell myself to medicate
I made friends with the numb
Made love to the pain
Wherever I run, couldn't get out of my way
Stuck in my head, sleepwalking half-awake

Now I'm feeling the blood run through my veins
Deep in my lungs, I'm breathing again
Forgiving myself, now this time I finally
I can hear my heartbeat
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
I can hear my heart

Now I only dream in colors
When I lived in black and white
You grow up fast when you're a mother
You stand strong when you're a wife
I made friends with the past, I'm not ashamed
Let all the tears roll down my face
Wouldn't know all this beauty without thanking my pain

Now I'm feeling the blood run through my veins
Deep in my lungs, I'm breathing again
Forgiving myself, now this time I finally
I can hear my heartbeat
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
I can hear my heart

And I almost lost it all (Almost lost it all)
I still stumble when I fall
But I'm still standing tall (I'm still standing tall)
I had to stop to understand (Stop to understand)
We all get a second chance
And I like who I am

Now I'm feeling the blood run through my veins
Deep in my lungs, I'm breathing again
Forgiving myself, now this time I finally
I can hear my heartbeat
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
I can hear my heartbeat
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
I can hear my heartbeat
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
Oh-whoa-oh-oh
I can hear my heart