Mixed Emotions

(album: Fearless II - 2022)

Lost inside my head, this time it feels like I'm not crawling out
Stuck with all this dread and I can't fight it, so I'm calling out

Can anybody help me? I know I been stuck in my ways
Don't gotta tell me, 'cause lately, I been trying to change
And it's unhealthy the way that I been taking the blame
I let 'em hate me, 'cause I don't really care
I'm sick of going through the motions, tired of losing focus
Always do my best, can you tell me why I'm broken?
I'm sick of my emotions, words I've never spoken
Always in a cloud above my head and now I'm hopeless

I wish that I could dive right in it, love when I'm winning
I been nonstop working, 'boutta burst through the ceiling
But the outcome never seems to match what I'm feeling
And the thoughts run through my head, they don't want me to breathe again
Yeah, and it's been killing me to see just what my life's like
Yeah, I went to therapy to try to get my mind right
Told me I'd feel better if I'm staying out the limelight
But I couldn't do it if I wanted

And I can't explain this feeling
My heart's been fighting my brain
All up in flames and I've been
I've been calling

Can anybody help me? I know I been stuck in my ways
Don't gotta tell me, 'cause lately, I been trying to change
And it's unhealthy the way that I been taking the blame
I let 'em hate me, 'cause I don't really care
I'm sick of going through the motions, tired of losing focus
Always do my best, can you tell me why I'm broken?
I'm sick of my emotions, words I've never spoken
Always in a cloud above my head and now I'm hopeless

I got too attached to my past, now I gotta kill the old me
Lost way too much, so don't tell me that you know me
Lost everyone I had in a while and now it's feeling lonely
Try to stray from this path but I can't, 'cause it chose me
I can keep going on but I save my breath
I distract myself, just write another check
And I just gave a quarter-million to the IRS
Another quarter for a trip just to decompress
So tell me why it's not working
When I could buy like anything I want, life should be perfect
But there's more to me than what you're seeing on the surface
Happiness was something I could never seem to purchase
I swear, like everyday, I been hurting

And I can't explain this feeling
My heart's been fighting my brain
All up in flames and I've been
I've been calling

Can anybody help me? I know I been stuck in my ways
Don't gotta tell me, 'cause lately, I been trying to change
And it's unhealthy the way that I been taking the blame
I let 'em hate me, 'cause I don't really care
I'm sick of going through the motions, tired of losing focus
Always do my best, can you tell me why I'm broken?
I'm sick of my emotions, words I've never spoken
Always in a cloud above my head and now I'm hopeless