Failure Girl

See? I said that I'd fail again so
Tell me the score, how many more til I give in?
See? The scars that are tearing apart my
Skin within, although I'm trying so hard

See? I said I'm the dummy again so
Looking away, getting better at pretend
See? They lie all about me and I know
Nobody wanted me for all of my life

Bear your fangs now, hurting inside
Bear the pain but, starting to cry
Barely breathing, begging to finally die

Shouting I'm a loser, I'm a failure
Shouting anyone at all even want you here?
What if I did everything right?
It won't matter I fear
I-I-I just wanted love
But now I have to lie
Maybe if I smiled more
They'd have to love me, right?

See? I said, getting scratches again so
Tell me the score, how many more til I give in?
See? The scars, bleeding out from my heart they
Never stop, although I'm trying so hard

See? I said, that I'm quiet again so
Hiding it well, like nothing had happened
See? They lie, all about me and I know
I'll bear the pain, take a beating, it's all fine

Gasping for air and sway side to side
Feeling so useless, blurring my mind
I couldn't breathe, there's nothing inside this time

Shouting I'm a loser, I'm a failure
Shouting anyone at all even want you here?
What if I did everything right?
It won't matter I fear
Still I wonder "why was I born?"
And why am I alive?
Maybe if I smiled well
They'd have to love me, right?

God In Heaven
If I were reborn someday
And if there's another life ahead
Can I be a girl that's loved?
That's all that I've wanted
Crying out until I hear
My heart sing me to bed
Surely, by the morning I
Can smile once again?

To my failure of a life
Goodnight this is the end