Note If I Die

(album: Eighteen Archives - 2018)

(I ain't really tripping if you wanna go)
(Grab that pen, this my note if I die)
(I know I made you cry last year when I was on the road)
(I meant it when I said it, you can always hit my phone)
(Got my family down, just incase if I die)
(213-267-9932, girl you know-ow-ow)

Yeah, this my note if I die
Think I tried to write this song three hundred seventy times
I could never say this, but I think, I think (think I think)
For a reason that's so much bigger than me, yeah
I know you be down and depressed
Old life in a mess
Wanna die? Fear of life?
Yessir, I feel that shit
Yessir, I feel that way
Don't know why life is great
I got it all, least they say, got it all, least they say
But they don't see my problems trapped in the mirror
Scary, but for some reason feel my ending is near (yeah)
My past keep getting blurry, but it's all come to clear
The things I tell you go right in and then right out of your ears

Listen to me, I need help (I need help)
Listen to me, I can't do this by myself (by myself)
Look around, is anybody else here? (yeah)
Look around, is anybody else here?
Listen to me, I need help (I need help)
Listen to me, I can't do this by myself (by myself)
Look around, is anybody else here?
Look around, is anybody else here?

(I ain't really tripping if you wanna go)
(Grab that pen, this my note if I die)
(I know I made you cry last year when I was on the road)
(I meant it when I said it, you can always hit my phone)
(Got my family down, just incase if I die)
(213-267-9932, girl you know-ow-ow)
(Is anybody else here?)
(Is anybody else here?)

Yeah, pray to God some more, got me thinking less
Religion in my blood, check my DNA (check that)
I make love long before I say, "I do"
Feel me? Tell me, "Yeah, they right"
Been like, "This ain't nothing new"
What I do is what I do
Tryna become happy by the time I'm twenty-two (twenty-two)
You can hate my actions but admire how I do
I'ma-I'ma keep it blunt, always keep it real with you
The things inside my head be depression and doubt
Kinda funny how I mask my depression with clout
Self-esteem in the dirt, check my follower count
I'll be empty by the end of the night, by the end of the night

Listen to me, I need help (I need help)
Listen to me, I can't do this by myself (by myself)
Look around, is anybody else here?
Look around, is anybody else here?
Listen to me, I need help (I need help)
Listen to me, I can't do this by myself (by myself)
Look around, is anybody else here?
Look around, is anybody else here?

(I ain't really tripping if you wanna go)
(I know I made you cry last year when I was on the road)
(I meant it when I said it, you can always hit my phone)
(213-267-9932, girl you know-ow-ow)