Freedom

(album: To Dream Beneath The Scorpion - 2023)

I used to like it when my night was lawless
When I woke up, I took shame with my toast
I'd try to black out just to rent the void
That's an 11-hour break for my ghost
I quit drinking but kept looking for it
The feeling like I'm worth the breath in my throat
Like "look at me, I made it, I'm important"
Sometimes success can hide the overdose

It's like your wants can show you where you're broken
In what you think you need, you show what you smoke
With every wish, what you could have is stolen
A jealous mind is self-hate in a cloak
And I don't want a life of chasing something
Even highs that are plated with gold
If my joy requires I take the summit
Then I'm a user disguising the dope

I've been addicted to pain
Let it rip through my mind
I've lost my way
Time after time
I've slipped into hate
I've run from the fight
And all that shame
Made me sick of the lies

Now all I want is freedom
Now all I want is freedom

When I'm at the end of all this
When I'm grey with ache in my bones
And my final day is coming on
And I'm making my escape as a ghost
I hope I want nothing and nothing's enough
I hope there's no chains that I'm trying to give up
I hope there's no shame as I start to lift up
All I hope to say when the moth man comes is

All I want is freedom
Now all I want is freedom
Now all I want is
Freedom
Freedom
Now all I want is
Now all I want is
Now all I want is