I Wish I Could Talk To You

(album: Allow Me To Re-Introduce Myself - 2012)

[Ex:]
I love you!

Yeah, Hmmm
I guess I could have learned to love you
Replace my sanity
With Kotex on the vanity
Put up with your habits
Reward your anxiety with carats
Substitute freedom for a marriage
I was quite in love with your odd behavior and acting out
Waited quite a while just to tap you out
Thought you was digging Saukrates
Came to find out that me and you couldn't wait to get down to knocking knees
The first time I dug you out raw!!!
Pussy so good I disobeyed the first law
Never fall hard for the skin too soft
Unless you been through some real shit, beating the odds
Yeah
But I was still in love with my ex
[Ex:] Hello?
I erased the pain every time we had (kiss) you know
Looking in your face but thinking about her
It's interesting seeing what we were
I wish I could talk to you

[Hook Peter Jericho:]
We once were
What we are
Never to be again
Now I look back
And laugh now
But it sure wasn't easy then
Loving you and wishing you genuinely felt the same
But it doesn't matter now, that was just a thought
We moved on
I just wanna talk to you

Girl you used to impress me
Clean the house and undress me
Giving me the sugar like Nestlé
Never seen a girl from Jamaica who
Came to Toronto and celebrated Canada Day more than Gretzky
Big smiles
But when I found out about your ex man
Being abusive I couldn't understand
How did you believe in that?
You were nothing greater than a whore
Sometimes mental abuse hurts more
So I showed you what love should feel like
Ice cream dates on a late night
Very long talks on the phone
When you would breakdown and you stayed downtown
When you felt you couldn't reach home
I wonder what marriage would feel like
You never left me but something didn't feel right
Your red eyes were spelling it out
And you wondered what the yelling was about
[Ex:] Hello?
I wish I could talk to you

[Hook]

We almost had a child
But we made mistakes that we couldn't take back
I hope God forgives for that
I used to look up at the moon, waiting outside your workplace
Me and you together seemed good on the surface
Til we flew out to my homeboy's wedding
When they exchanged vows, I knew I wasn't heading
To the same place with you, reality set in
I loved you but didn't like the feelings that you let in
Insecurity, jealousy, envy, no self-esteem
It's like I woke out of a bad dream
All the drinking and the smoking and the going out
Never mind all the shit I ain't know about
I had to free my future
Let go of your grip with Kama Sutra
Sleep alone and feel like I lost my world
My axis was spinning with you girl
The other day I heard my cell phone ring
An unknown caller calling in, hold up
The other day I heard my cell phone ring
An unknown caller calling in
I wish I could talk to you

[Phone conversation:]
[Ex:] Hello?
[Kardi:] Yo!
[Ex:] Hello?
[Kardi:] What up miss thing? What's good?
[Ex:] Hey, who's this?
[Kardi:] This is Kardi
[Ex:] Wow... What's going on?
[Kardi:] [mumbling]
[Ex:] Say what?
[Kardi:] Same shit. You know what I'm saying. Same thing
[Ex:] I haven't heard from you in five years
[Kardi:] I know man. I just been chilling you know? That's it
[Ex:] That's cool
[Kardi:] You know what's funny? I ended up moving in with old girl that you ain't like.
[Ex:] When was this?
[Kardi:] About a year after you left I guess
[Ex:] You happy?
[Kardi:] I mean yeah she treats me good. You know what I'm saying... You married yet?
[Ex:] No...
[Kardi:] No?
[Ex:] Not yet. I've been seeing somebody
[Kardi:] That's good, as long as he ain't putting no hands on you. You know? You think about our old shit? Like how it used to be? Back in the day?
[Ex:] I mean... maybe a little bit. I think about it from time to time
[Kardi:] Yeah, me too... Is somebody in the room with you?
[Ex:] No, nobody's here
[Kardi:] You know you was wrong right? You know that
[Ex:] I mean...
[Kardi:] Hmm... Alright alright check it. Never mind that. You still think about me though?
[Ex:] I think about you... yeah. You think about me?
[Kardi:] Nope!
[Ex:] [laughs]
[Kardi:] ...You still love me?
[Ex:] Of course. You still love me?
[Kardi:] No I do not!!!
[Ex:] Fuck you nigga! That shit's not funny
[Kardi:] [laughing]
[Ex:] Ha ha ha nothing
[Kardi:] Hey yo. Say the thing
[Ex:] Say what?
[Kardi:] Say the thing for me
[Ex:] No, you gotta tell me first
[Kardi:] Yo I asked you to say it first man. Why you always want me to tell you first man damn? Fuck
[Ex:] Hey
[Kardi:] Hey nothing. But I know if you didn't though, you wouldn't, you know what I'm saying, you wouldn't entertain that shit
[Ex:] There you go
[Kardi:] Yo! Just say it for me one time and I'll never bother you again. I just want to hear you say it. You know what I'm saying?
[Ex:] Are you ready?
[Kardi:] Yeah...
[Ex:] I love you!