Happy

(album: Gag Order - 2023)

And sometimes you think you're doing the magic
And sometimes you realize the magic is doing you
And this was one of those moments

What if none of this happened?
It's nothing like I imagined it
What if I wasn't this strong?
What if it all just went different?
So many times I wish I woulda just listened
I wasn't ready for it all

There's so many things I'd change but I can't
There's so many things I said that I wish I left unsaid
Time's passing me by
Gotta just laugh so I don't cry

If you asked me then where I wanted to be
It'd look something like this living out my wildest of dreams
But life sometimes ain't always what it seems
If you ask me now
All I've wanted to be
Is happy

I remember when I was little
Before I knew that anyone could be evil
These egos, some people, playing with my innocence like at a casino
And I refuse to be jaded
Still painting rainbows all over my face, oh
I've gotten used to the fall, fall

There's so many things I'd change but I can't
There's so many things I said that I wish I left unsaid
Time's passing me by
Gotta just laugh so I don't die

If you asked me then where I wanted to be
It'd look something like this
Living out my wildest of dreams
But life ain't always what it seems
No, life got me falling to my knees

But if you ask me now
All I've wanted to be

If you'd ask me now
If you'd ask me now
If you'd ask me now
If you'd ask me now

If you'd ask me then
If you'd ask me then
If you'd ask me then
If you'd ask me now