Solo

(album: Reason To Smile - 2022)

Sometimes I'm not okay, and that's okay
Same shit new day, I'll wear that crown, I'll bear that pain, I'll be okay
My money long, my people straight, or so they say
I'll wear that smile, I'll be okay, I'll be

Holding me down solo, holding me down solo
Holding me down solo, holding me down solo

Wake up, wake up, wake up, count a prayer and say a blessing I
Look inside the mirror see a face that I don't recognise
Airways too polluted revolution will be televised
Still can't watch the news the politics feel like a pantomime
Agents all around me trying to take my soul and weaponize
Still can't trust a soul 'cause they might take the truth and improvise
Burned so many bridges recent I can't even see the sky
Careful of the compliments the devil come in new disguise
Nowadays its do or die
Unity mean you and I
Hit the gram and do the most
Act like everything is fine
Act like a brother don't bleed and a brother don't feel and a brother don't cry sometimes
Won't go back nah can't go back to the feeling that I really wanna die sometimes

Get some pussy penetrate
Blow a stem and medicate
If that don't work I meditate
If that don't work I hit repeat
If that don't work I work on me
If that don't work well time will tell
If they won't say I tell myself

Sometimes I'm not okay, and that's okay
Same shit new day, I'll wear that crown, I'll bear that pain, I'll be okay
My money long, my people straight, or so they say
I'll wear that smile, I'll be okay, I'll be

Holding me down solo, holding me down solo
Holding me down solo, holding me down solo

I know I won't have no regrets
I can live at peace knowing I gave it my best
So many nights in my head
Lonely nights in my bed
Fighting demons till we both were at rest
Nobody told me it would be easy it was a challenge
Nobody showed me the ropes I had to learn a balance on my own
Put in that hard work with the talent and grow
Learn and let love cleanse the palate and soul
I know my skin don't make the news
We been break the rules
We see through smoke and mirrors
It feel like April Fool's
Visit mommy in that [?] prison and play it cool
Survivor's guilt be on my back when I sit in that waiting room
I wonder why is luck on my side
Am I covered
I don't question it I just
I just notice the patters around me
Feeling like the rings of Saturn around me orbit
Hmm yeah
All this chatter around me
Falling deep in the abyss but it don't matter
Sometimes I'm not ok

Sometimes I'm not okay, and that's okay
Same shit new day, I'll wear that crown, I'll bear that pain, I'll be okay
My money long, my people straight, or so they say
I'll wear that smile, I'll be okay, I'll be

Holding me down solo, holding me down solo
Holding me down solo, holding me down solo