Strange Maneuvers

(album: Even In The Tremor - 2019)

A man holds a Bible above his head
His blood rushes down with a shit-eating grin
He's only hoping to be noticed
The teenagers buy berries on the corner
The juices drop down their middle fingers
They're just looking to be looked over
Well, I'm passing by the cathedral doors
It's gorgeous inside whether or not you're reborn

Wading in the wings, wild thoughts are everything
The mind is thinking of itself, how stunning?
The ripeness is rotting, the roughness is softening
Time is making strange maneuvers

A spectacle so theatrical
Person is fucking hisself over and over
How incessant, how unnerving
The shimmer of the heavens we are cursing

I don't wanna be afraid of myself anymore
I don't wanna be afraid of myself anymore
I don't wanna be afraid of myself anymore
I don't wanna be afraid of myself anymore

After wading all day in my kiddie pool brain
My last stitch is a ticket to a matinee
But my attention span is too broke to play
I can't stop replaying my mistakes over and over
And over, and over, and over

Wading in the wings, wild thoughts are everything
The mind is thinking of itself, how stunning?
The ripeness is rotting, the roughness is softening
Time is making strange maneuvers

How incessant, how unnerving
The shimmer of the heavens we are cursing

I don't wanna be afraid of myself anymore
I don't wanna be afraid of myself anymore
I don't wanna be afraid of myself anymore
I don't wanna be afraid of myself anymore

(Thank you)
Kurt called in the early morning
Just to remind me I'm already alright
Last night he read me a long list of words
To occupy my mind
And it worked, Kurty-bear
You bathe my brain like a baby sink
Please stay with yourself the way you stayed with me

I know of the vibrant pain
When the pitch of your crying is
Vibrating your vein
Like an already-taught string being tightened
But your mind is thinking of itself
Honey, isn't that something else?