Collapse And Appear

(album: Oblivion Access - 2015)

He used to laugh the loudest, now it never shows
He tried to be the tallest, but he never grows
He watched his brother die and never told
Looked around and knew he had to go
He knew his father had a better dream
But you can't learn from what you've never seen
He tried to mingle with these jealous thieves
Watch a human interact with a machine
Watch a human interact with a machine
Watch a human get abused by a machine
Watch a human getting used by a machine
Now he's useless, and he's stupid and obscene
He never leaves
He never leaves
He comes and he goes, but he never leaves
He never breathes, he never breathes
He inhales and exhales, but he never breathes
He never leaves
He never leaves
He comes and he goes, but he never leaves
He never breathes, he never breathes
He inhales and exhales, but he never breathes
(Watch this human interaction)
(Watch this human interaction)
(Watch this human interaction)
(Watch this human interaction)
(Watch this human interaction)
(Watch this human interaction)

I fell apart and took my mind with me
I have been barely sustaining
My pain just marinating
I fell apart and took my mind with me
Just a ghost cloaked in lies with a broken spine
Fell apart and took my mind with me
Just an unrecognizable creature, caught under an avalanche
Fell apart and took my mind with me
My presence unnerving, I'm a shadow always lurking
Surrounded by death
Even the towel rack reminds me of the handles pallbearers grip tightly on the way out of church
What they use to lift you up into the back of that hearse
I see a woman tighten grip on her purse
Can't be offended, she doesn't know my intentions
She imagines the worst
Around here, the conditions severe
Around here, you tightrope between detachment and fear Between the shattered fragments of existence that collapse and appear
Never changes, just exacerbates depression deeper year after year
Pain weaving in, pain weaving out
Heartworms, sharp turns, sparse words, scars, burns
I spent a long time dying, don't wake me up yet
Public executions, you'll never see me upset
Force-fed myself with blow, but now I settle for sedatives
No longer in the streets, I belong in the crevices
Positively negative, popular I've never been
Hard to be a person when you lack the mental requisites
Emotionally deficit, consumed with all the wretchedness
Not optimist or pessimist, my politics are in exodus
Spouting countless fountains out while drowning in the brine
My life's the foulest algorithm science can't define
They trap you in these systems that are phallic in design
Because they fuck you in the mind
Boy, they fuck you all the time
I fell apart and took my mind with me
Being strung up at the ligaments with cultural derivatives
I fell apart and took my mind with me
Pronounced dead by a nemesis, a doubt without a benefit
I fell apart and took my mind with me
Just a cluster of atoms thrust deep in a chasm
I feel apart, and now your mind is with me
Smoke in your eyes, the world's a joke in disguise