Losin My Mind

(album: Thing S Thatare Stuff - 2018)

Yo
Feel like I'm going crazy
I don't know man, I don't know
[*sigh*]
The fuck?
I've never felt like this, yo
I've never felt like this

Yo
They say absence makes the heart grow fonder
But I've been chilling over yonder
And that bitch still don't want me
Around her
I should have left her where I found her
In that shitty ass diner, standing by the counter
Damn, I remember how she looked and how she sounded
The way her eyes gleamed, and it seemed only good things surrounding
We sat and chatted over chowder
'Bout sex, religion, music, and Jamaican showers
This was love
Made me want to spend every waking hour with her, picking flowers out the mud
She told me meet her at the Franklin Towers with some bud
Grabbed the herb and paid for the grub
I thought I told you this was love
The next few months were barely unconsequential
They were beautiful, which left me feeling overall resentful
Aggravated with mad confusion in the mental
Like screws into my temple, and shoes that's made of pencils
Like too rough is too gentle
Like standing nude on a stage during rains that's torrential
Feeling like her life is confidential
Paranoia is a bitch and often proves detrimental
Over some shit that's usually coincidental
But I believe that life is existential
Like, one thing leads to another
Like an X chromosome lead to a son or a brother
Like a folded phone number usually lead to a lover
And when she find out you cheating, you'll be ducking for cover

I'm losing my mind, I'm mixed up
Guess when I find some time, I'll get fixed up
I'm losing my mind, I'm mixed up
Guess when I find some time, I'll get fixed up
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind (losing my mind)
I'm losing my mind
I'm losing my mind, I'm mixed up

Now I'm standing here disregarding consequence, common sense, and manners
Awkward plus embarrassed
Girl, I talk to much, I'm careless
Girl, I share it if I'm thinking it
Maybe that's the issue
Not to mention that I miss you
Forget you
You're a psychopath
Maybe that's just me
Maybe I'm just a puppet on a string
I'm talking fast, let me slow down
My apologies
I want this to come out right
Been thinking all night, drinking all night
I'm not alright
You left me passed out, all the past out
Practically scratch my eyes out, pathetically pour my heart out
Lies and insecurities are aesthetics we've turned to art forms
Pain weaving in and out
Call 'em heart worms
I've been tired of this since yesterday
And yesterday took forever
Let's just sever all our ties, and be better
On our own, tired of sitting on the phone, just waiting
All of this bullshit is weighing on my back, call it a knapsack
Filled with all the questions that I never asked you
When was I a villain? How can I distract you?
Now it's over, call it history
Any day's mystery is solved
Bet you'll miss me when I'm gone
Keep listening to this song
It's not a you and I issue
Don't you get it?
We were both wrong
We were both wrong
We were both wrong