Sometimes

(album: Make It Through Fall - 2018)

Catch me in the back with my head down
I'm just gonna fade to the background
I know that I'm awkward
Laugh at the wrong jokes, say all the wrong words

I want to die in the front seat
It feels like for the last few months we
Just can't get it right, no love for life
Suicide on my mind every night

'Cause I don't know my place
What's the point in being real when the world's so fake?
How many motherfucking pills does it take before my heart shuts down and my lifeline breaks?

I haven't seen a soul in three weeks
'Cause I never leave my bed, and I never even sleep
Lost 20 pounds, I don't want to fucking eat
I just want to find some peace, oh God, please

It's raining in the morning
It's raining in the evening
Raining when I go to bed
40 days and 40 nights
Nothing's gonna be alright
Until I finally rest my head
Sometimes I wish I was dead

Finger to the back of my throat now
Again and again, get it all out
I know I'm impatient, fucked it all up again, because I stay so anxious

I need something to die for
I can't put this life together like the tri-force
I need a little wisdom, courage, and power
So I'm puffing level up every hour

'Cause I don't even know what's real
Either feel like shit or I just don't feel
How many bottles left on my bill
Before I leave this scene and I chase these pills?

For real, what's going on?
You said it's all right that it's all wrong
But I'll be okay just as long
As my spirit lives on through these songs but

It's raining in the morning
It's raining in the evening
Raining when I go to bed
40 days and 40 nights
Nothing's gonna be alright
Until I finally rest my head
Sometimes I wish I was dead

Sometimes I wish I was dead

We blow away like the leaves
(Sometimes I wish I was dead)
You thought you heard, misquoted
(Sometimes I wish I was dead)
"I think I know what it means"
(Sometimes I wish I was dead)
Guess I must've misspoken
(Sometimes I wish I was dead)

I rode the train today
Forgot how much I hate tight spaces
I hope it takes me far away
I hope you know that I'm off to the races, I'm off to the races
I'm off to the races