Wannabe

(album: LeeAnn's Son - 2014)

This is my song, yeah
This is my song, yeah, yeah
This is my song and I'm dancing with the Devil
On a highway to hell in the middle of the road
This is my time to decide

Uh, Devil in my mind now
Monogamy isn't the only thing I've been lying 'bout
I'm in the belly of the beast and I'm riding 'round
Rope in my hand, should I hang myself or climb out?
I feel like everyone around me 'bout to make it
And I'm busy with some bitch I only fuck up when I'm faded
They say I'll grow to be a monster, but I am one
Why the fuck you think I've been calling myself "LeeAnn's Son"?
I ain't Thomas anymore, I ain't honest anymore
I don't give a shit about a broken promise anymore
I got back home from tour like a month ago
And I been in the club getting drunk since a month ago
I lost the only girl I've ever loved, bet you knew it
'Cause I said a million times, and now it's true
I swore that she would never ever come before my music
And now I see that every rapper sing the same tune

This is my song and I'm dancing with the Devil
On a highway to hell in the middle of the road
This is my time to decide if I'm gonna be a better man
Or cover everything I own in gold
This is not the way
This is not the way
This is not the way
That I, that I, that I, that I... wannabe

There's rappers in the city that been talking shit
And gangs that's in the city, y'all been talking 'bout it too
There's women in the city I been fucking with on weekends
While I'm out late with my friends, but I'm still in love with who... hates me
I'm guilty and I'm sure it's slowly killing me
I'ma take the fall and all responsibility
Uh, Jesus in my heart now
I heard he walked with you, I'll bring the car around
I don't have the time or the energy
To forget about the past or forgive myself for anything, I'm waiting for it
I just cut this whole tape on a party tip
And now I'm like what the fuck, when's the fucking party end?
When I wanted to be good, no one else was
When I wanted to be rich, they wouldn't sell drugs
When she wanted us together, man, I guess I didn't
When I needed her to find me, she went missing

This is my song and I'm dancing with the Devil
On a highway to hell in the middle of the road
This is my time to decide if I'm gonna be a better man
Or cover everything I own in gold
This is not the way
This is not the way
This is not the way
That I, that I, that I, that I... wannabe

This is not the way
This is not the way
This is not the way
That I, that I, that I, that I... wannabe
This is not the way, let it go now
This is not the way, let it go now

Uh, I'm 24 and I'm real enough to say
If I don't make it big by 30 I'ma kill myself
I bet you think this is some super high thoughts
But I ain't made for a full time position at a real job
I was built to fit perfect in a Maserati
And to be the drunkest at a grammy after party
I'm in this quiet grey area, no feelin's
I'm in a loud grey Acura, no ceilin's
I been tryna figure out how to do it different
I broke too many hearts and never been religious
I'm all alone and all my friends are in the room
I don't wear wolves or fur but I'm howling at the moon, loud
I just don't know what to do now
I should move on but there's no house to move out
Too many wannabes are living in my neighborhood
And I refuse to let them call me neighbors 'cause I'm really good

This is my song and I'm dancing with the Devil
On a highway to hell in the middle of the road
This is my time to decide if I'm gonna be a better man
Or cover everything I own in gold
This is not the way
This is not the way
This is not the way
That I, that I, that I, that I... wannabe