Demons

(album: Apply Pressure - 2020)

I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming
I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They keep talking to me but I can't tell 'em shit cause they can't keep a secret

I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming
I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They keep talking to me but I can't tell 'em shit cause they can't keep a secret

What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
When there's nothing left

Cause I don't want to feel shit
Someone must've hit a kill switch
They don't ask about the problems that I deal with
Fuck all of this money, you can have it, I don't feel rich
I keep having these flashbacks, I hate 'em
They remind me of my problems, I can't stand to face 'em
I know it's probably my last chance to change 'em
But even if I do it, my past can't erase it
They recognize me cause they see me on the Internet
They think I owe 'em something, I can't deal with all the disrespect
Sick to my stomach, when I feel it I just disconnect
My demons tend to get the best, tell me when I get depressed
I've been stabbed in the back with a chainsaw
But who am I to blame y'all? I'm smokin till the pains gone
You see me smiling on the surface trying to stay strong
Acting like I'm happy starts to feel like it's my day job
But just as long as there's a purpose to it all
I'll keep touring, working hard, writing verses to these songs
Far from perfect, every person has their flaws
And mine is I'm an addict still searching for a cause
I know they judge me for mistakes that I've made
Since I've gained all this fame shit just ain't been the same
I came in the game to pave a lane for my name
And it's painful to say it puts restraints on my brain, but
I know it's worth it cause I get to tell my story
I'm at a point where the industry can't ignore me
I never had the mainstream media to endorse me
I did this all by being myself and y'all are corny
So every kid that's listening to this song
I hope you find a message I've written within it all
If no one's ever there to help pick you up when you fall
I promise you're not alone, play this shit and just hit the wall, cause

I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming
I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They keep talking to me but I can't tell 'em shit cause they can't keep a secret

I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming
I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They keep talking to me but I can't tell 'em shit cause they can't keep a secret

I know you're listening for something to relate to
I know the feeling like the whole world hates you
I know you wishing you could finally have a break through
You thought it was a phase so you pretend you're in a great mood
I know it hurts to see reflections of yourself
Cause the person that you see is not like everybody else
So you try and you try but it never seems to help
So you questioning your worth cause you're so fed up with the guilt, but
You're not the only one who's going through regret
You're not the only one that no one seems to get
You're not the only one who's so close to the edge
And if you slip it's over for you so you cope with it instead
I can promise you that nobody is perfect
And you overthink the little shit you always so concerned with
So you lock yourself inside every night and close the curtains
And you're screaming out loud but it's like no one even heard it

I know problems are piling up right in front of you
So much anxiety inside you, don't know what to do
Been lied to so much that you don't think you even want the truth
Fuck it all, you grew to be used to it, it ain't nothing new
I've been there too, just hold tight
A lot of substance abuse and long nights
But next time I see all my demons, it's on site
Next time I see all my demons, it's on site, yeah

I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They've been haunting my dreams and I can't think straight cause they won't stop screaming
I've been falling asleep with all of my demons
They keep talking to me but I can't tell 'em shit cause they can't keep a secret

What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?

What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
What the fuck am I to do?
When there's nothing left