Unwanted Lifestyle

I'm alive but I'm actually dying
Loud but I'm actually quiet
Hurt but I'm tryna stay solid
Praying as I speed in this car
Shining but it's actually dark
My headlights off as I'm driving
Some people'll kill for this lifestyle that I don't wanna live no more
I didn't even cry when Lil E died, I'm thinking that my tears are gone

Heaven sent, I speed through the forest and I don't hear the tree
Flyer than a hornet but I'm real as I can be, yeah
You can stay here or leave, yeah, I ain't talking Tylenol
More water than Niagra Falls
Sold codeine outta mama house
When they turn the lights off, all of a sudden I'm heating now
Got rich and now I'm at my dangerousest
Window, I be hanging out, I love how that chopper sound
Sometimes I forget I'm famous
All of a sudden she hit me back then she was dodging me
The dropoff would be quicker but we plan on parking these
Saint Laurent, I'm dripping, bitch, don't even talk to me
Shouldn't have to pay for your love but I was told nothing was free
How you wanna be me and I don't wanna be me?
Remember we was hustling backwards
Now I need six figures for my album
And I count that money with a passion
Try to hide that struggle with the fashion
And my jewelry rose gold like Jalen
Think I'm at peace long as I'm dying faded
My straightjacket Moncler, I'm going crazy

I'm alive but I'm actually dying
Loud but I'm actually quiet
Hurt but I'm tryna stay solid
Praying as I speed in this car
Shining but it's actually dark
My headlights off as I'm driving
Some people'll kill for this lifestyle that I don't wanna live no more
I didn't even cry when Lil E died, I'm thinking that my tears are gone

When they turn the lights off, all of a sudden I'm heating now
Got rich and now I'm at my dangerousest
Window, I be hanging out, I love how that chopper sound
Sometimes I forget I'm famous