a garden in the shade

(Boyfifty)

She's been telling what I wanna hear just to make it through the day
But I know that something's off, shit don't suddenly change
Lately she ain't give me hugs, she's been taking more drugs
Tryna find quality time, but I've been working too much
I ain't sleeping like I used to, I wish that I could
I ain't been talking to God, but I know that I should
Been together two years and it's been worse than ever
Girl, I know that something's missing, I don't gotta be clever
I'm tryna give you my all, you ain't accepting my gifts
You used to run to the door, when I got home from my shift
Our house is falling apart, your words ain't giving me warmth
If I was on my death bed, you'd be pulling the chord

(Stay outside, I don't know)
(Stay outside the door)

Now, how long has it been since I posted a pic?
Feels like years ago that you were sitting here in my midst
You would cuddle up close, now you just blow me a kiss
I see the secrets in the corners of the room that you sit
I've been left in the wind, maybe it's time I walk home
You keep on dodging my questions, like girl, you think I ain't know
I see the tracks in the snow, I hear the wings on the crows
And the part I can't get over is me letting you go
I don't know
Yeah, why would you do it?
I know you're smart, you ain't stupid
You knew it'd leave me in ruins
I'm just a hole in the earth, an empty shell on the beach
You knocked the food off of the table while I'm washing your feet
You came and bandaged me, didn't know that you were the one stabbing me
Calamity was tumbling down the hallway chasing after me
Runny nose and puffy eyes, blame it on my allergies
Never told my family I'd rather let the matter be, yeah
They don't need another tragedy, uh
No more dishes needing shattering
Evil in your eyes, should be hung up in a gallery
The way that you deceived me is a masterpiece