when the hospital was my home

(альбом: some boring love stories pt 5 - 2020)

Feel the wind blow, I can hear it in my left ear
Sounds like when you whisper to me but you're not around here
Life is slow, sleeping 12 hours a day
Since I had my surgery, it's never been the same
I'm sick and it sucks and my friends barely visit
Every week that goes by, end up feeling more distant
Cried so many times trying to chip away my fear
Praying when I'm sad, thinking of our younger years
First night that you kissed me, cuddle watching Disney
Now I wait at night for a text that you miss me
Every second is a blessing when you're standing at my side
We didn't see this coming, it's okay to say goodbye

It's okay to say goodbye
But I hate saying goodbyes
Would you stay here longer?
Sorry, I'm not stronger

Speak to me with honesty, it's harder than we thought it would be
Tell it to me straight, I don't want no probablys
Tell me when you're tired, 'cause I'm getting tired too
The rain is feeling heavy and the sky isn't so blue
Pills for my breakfast, promising they'll heal me
Hanging out with doctors and staring at the ceiling
My favorite days are Mondays when you come and see me
Wish you would stay longer, but I know it's not easy (Yeah)
I was excited for that concert
Tell me all about it, did they sign your new Converse?
I don't wanna let go when we hug
One thing worse than dying is losing who you love

It's okay to say goodbye
But I hate saying goodbyes
Would you stay here longer?
Sorry, I'm not stronger

Noticed all the pain you had to deal with
Was sick of all the doctors lying, saying that you'd heal quick
It's been a couple days since you left us in that hearse
Your girl just called me, said she's pregnant and that would've been my first
So shocked when she told me, why didn't she tell you?
She thought you'd leave the world to get your promises and fell through
You always talked about how you were ready for a son
Now you'll be watching over him free of pain
Hope that one day he'll look up and feel your love

When I get to heaven, I'ma wait for you
Sorry for the things that I put you through
You had to watch me flat line
Wishing that we had time