S.O.S.

(альбом: S.O.S. - 2021)

I don't even know if I'm here anymore
Like my body's here, but my spirit disappeared
I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong (Please help me)
I wish that you could save me, but I may be far too gone
Put me out my misery

All my life [?]
Put a crown on it, chug a bottle of Crown Royal and the grape juice Vodka
You know you hate life when you pray that you faint and remain unconscious
But you can't get the job done
Put a shotgun barrel to your face, what caused this?
'Cause my thought has always been that way, since I was a kid, I always been a fuck up
Eavesdropping on my parents tryna to discuss what they could do to me, ass whoopings haven't done much
Feel like God was a man with a giant ass dick, so I'm praying that I stop getting butt fucked
But I'm saying something different out loud, really thinking he might punish me for saying all this fucked up
Thought I would grow up one day and show up mom and dad, "Look, I'm not the loser you knew"
Got a deal when I turned 32, but they still feel embarrassed for the music I do
How I talk, how I dress, how they thought my success would be gone in a second, I'd screw it up, too
Wishing they never would've said that shit (You're right)
'Cause everything they assumed is coming true
There were times when I blew all the money and of course I can say, [?] there was more to be made
Making sure that I take care of my homeboys and my whole neighborhood from the choices that they made
By now I should have like 400k in the bank, 'cause I'm free from my contract
But the money that I got, started a company, its fund didn't cover my recovery, I'm about to fail a drug test, fuck this

I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong
I wish that you could save me, but I may be far too gone

Put me out my misery
Sick of suffering
Feel like everyone I love has had enough of me
Put me out my misery
Sick of suffering
I'm ashamed 'cause who I am ain't who I wanna be

As a couple me and my lady laying in covers, nothing excites us
We used to look forward to we go on gourmet foods, stick a fork in the pie crust
Going to a shrink [?] but he thinks I have been experimenting on the drugs he prescribed us
I ain't feeling great, disappear I may, feel like someone put a deep incision in my brain, putting knives in my eye balls
Right, get a eye shut, tryna move a ounce, fuck
I done got so lazy, I don't bath, I just wipe up
I throw my phone, my zone vibrate, don't wanna know how normal everyone is, I'm not
Wanna hop inside a ride and find a cliff to drive off
My car probably flip and hit a palm tree
Will the fall paralyze me instead of dying?
I will be alive still, kinda luck I got
"What's up, you're my guy, why you're so unhappy?"
One, I see a mirror, hate the person looking at me
Two, I hate my life, it's even worse than being addict
Three, I hold a grudge, I bet the Lord above is laughing
'Cause I made it rapping after 20 years when nobody cares about your music and I'm sick of posting hashtags
'Cause they don't like your album either, now you gotta talk to people, acting like you're happy when you wanna take a trash bag
Put it on your head and hang a rope around a fixture
Still pissed at how my parents post no picture
In the living room beside my brother and my sister
Maybe they ashamed of me, knowing that they kid suck
Each day is a bitch, just tryna stay sober
But nose gotta itch 'cause I sniffed drugs
It's nonsense people think it's a sense tryna quit, I'd give my left nut just to get drunk
I should give up

I wish I could retrace my steps and place where I went wrong
I wish that you could save me, but I may be far too gone

Put me out my misery
I'm sick of suffering
I feel like everyone I love has had enough of me
Put me out my misery
I'm sick of suffering
I'm ashamed 'cause who I am ain't who I wanna be, ah