Dopamine

I've been writing a list of
All the things I don't want to talk about
But I'd better do it anyway
Because if I don't find a way to get away
I'm gonna suffocate
Speak of the devil
Where's my damn caffeine
'Cause I don't feel it in my veins
I need a damn IV
I swear to god I get so scared sometimes
When I feel lonely
Especially at night
I need a hit of dopamine
To cope with being out of dopamine
It's not the pain it's the absence of it that gets to me

Sometimes you make me hate myself
Sometimes you give me nothing

Dopamine, dopamine, dopamine
It's the absence of it that gets to me
Dopamine, dopamine, dopamine
It's the absence of it that gets to me
Palpitate

Spiritual lyrical miracles are not from here I know
I sing it and feel it don't overthinking it
It's real enough just like sleeping and breathing
Subcounsciously but also consciously
It's hard for you to find the truth behind what you're feeling
Believe it
Everything I write about is property of someone else
And honestly the infinite inside of me cannot be reached
Just have to know that it will be
As above, so beneath

Sometimes meditating everyday
Is uninspiring 'cause then all my demons go away
I need to make some gasoline
So I can get the fuck out of the scene
It's not the love its the absence of it that gets to me

Sometimes you make me hate myself
Sometimes you give me nothing

Dopamine, dopamine, dopamine
It's the absence of it that gets to me
Dopamine, dopamine, dopamine
It's the absence of it that gets to me
Palpitate

I'm just sleeping, I'm just sleeping
I'm just sleeping, I'm just sleeping
It's the absence of it
I'm just sleeping
Absence of it gets to me

Dopamine, dopamine, dopamine
It's the absence of it that gets to me
Dopamine, dopamine, dopamine
It's the absence of it that gets to me