Lonely

As winter takes me now of cold and clammy skin
A barren empty womb as I am born again

I deleted everything, but I'm still stuck with the memories
I have a broken smile, I'm not happy, I just pretend to be
Angry and full of jealously, hate me, but just remember me
Feeling a lack of energy, latching on what you said to me
"We'll last forever.", that's a fucking lie
Cause if it was true, you wouldn't be fucking another guy
Especially when we barely broke up the other night
Like what did you do to me bitch? You started another fight
Ever since you left, you don't know what I've been through
Cause I've been so depressed and there's nobody to vent to
There's no heart in my chest for me to forgive you
Cause I'd be dating a slut, that's how everyone depicts you
Cause everyone knows what you did and that's the worst thing
What's worse is I'm trying to chase you after how bad you hurt me
My friend's say, "Jonathan, give that bitch up."
But their words are not working
It's just when we broke apart, a piece of my heart got buried

As winter takes me now of cold and clammy skin
A barren empty womb as I am born again

I got a graveyard in my heart, pick a ditch bitch
I would've showed you life, since I thought you would stick with me
I knew you since I was sixteen
I wanted to build a future with you, follow our dreams
Cause I rapped and you sing
And there's no sweet sound, so sing a lullaby
So I can fall asleep, so I don't have to see you say goodbye
I'm fucking these thots to cover this hole
You made when you left and I'm
So jealous you found love
Cause that's something that I cannot find
I got a thousand cuts and they're getting deeper
This girl's like semi-kissing me, telling me I don't need her
I know she's lying, cause she wants me, I wish I could believe her
But the second me and her get close, then I gotta leave her
If love was a crime, I'mma catch a misdemeanor
I miss my ex, fuck it, I gotta see her
I hate that I love her, that makes me an underachiever
Cause I should aim higher than dating a liar
Why am I trying to keep her?

As winter takes me now of cold and clammy skin
A barren empty womb as I am born again

You were the story of my life, in yours, I was just a chapter
You just wasted my time, I guess that I never mattered
Telling your friends about me
Switching the story, getting it backwards
Sick of you playing the victim
Saying that I was fucking bitches, because the kid was a rapper
And you're lying to yourself and I hate that shit
Anything to make you feel justified on why you ruined this relationship
You taught me how I could hate a bitch
But fuck I hate this bitch
It makes it worse cause I'd re-date this bitch

Comes undone, falls off the edge
Falls out young, falls off the edge