Choices

Choices
The decisions I was scared to make are haunting me
Like a mortgage that I live to pay, I'm going to
The words that I live by, I'm going to
The words that I'll die by, I let go of me
And let you down, I let go of you
And let me down and I'm tired of every regret that's my life

And happy
Is something that I'm gonna be when I have time
You could never understand the deadlines
Consequence and everything I'm going through
What I'm going through, what I'm going through
Am I breaking through?

Still every morning I say
Things will be different today
But as the sun sets at last
Another one ending regret

The tide
The way that the stars and the sky collide
Feeling the orbital flow, so free
Juxtaposition in me

And space
So unsystematic, yet case by case
The laws of gravity win again
And crumble the strongest of men

Process
The incisions I've been trained to make self-surgery
Emergence of illuminance, I've broken through
And I've broken through
And I've broken through
And I've broken through

I'm happy