Almost Happy

Shades closed in every room
I move slow
Can't quite cope with who I see in you
Anything you said ever true?
The past year
I've been suffering as I watched
Love turn paper thin
And who, who exactly am I to you?

'Cause I don't want to play no games
And yeah, you changed
I don't want to stay stuck here in this place
Tell me what you want to do?
Do you think he could love you like I do?
And every year just brings more pain
Thoughts that weigh down any hope I have left in me
And I don't really think that's fair
Baby yeah, I'm not really sure you care

So, love
Can I make you stay awhile?
I'm spiraling in my own denial
It's not real
Yet I wanna know how you feel
'Cause every single thought that haunts me
Sticks the knife so deep I can't breathe
I always thought it'd be you and me
And yet I'd take pain over nothing

So help me out
I swear to god, I would take away the doubt
I would try, try to watch my mouth
If you would just stay for awhile

Please just don't leave
Tell me that you'll understand
That you'll stay here in the end
'Cause I don't want amends, no
I just need the person that
I had always thought I had
But now you see me
Through a different colored lens
And we both know how it ends
I promise I can change
You promise you won't hurt again
But who are we to play pretend?

Salt in open wounds
I just smile 'cause I don't know what to say to you, I just feel
Like what I want could never be real
'Cause I can't be the person you need
Almost happy, yet I'm empty
No, it could never be you and me
Still I'd take pain over nothing

So help me out
I swear to god, I would take away the doubt
I would try, try to watch my mouth
If you would just stay for awhile

Please just don't leave
Tell me that you'll understand
That you'll stay here in the end
'Cause I don't want amends, no
I just need the person that
I had always thought I had
But now you see me
Through a different colored lens
And we both know how it ends
I promise I can change
You promise you won't hurt again
But who are we to play pretend?

So don't leave
Tell me that you'll understand
Will you stay here in the end?
I don't want amends, no
I just need the person that
I had always thought I had
Now you see me
Through a different colored lens
And we both know how it ends
I promise I can change
I promise you won't hurt again
But who am I to play pretend?

Please just don't leave
Tell me that you'll understand
That you'll stay here in the end
'Cause I don't want amends, no
I just need the person that
I had always thought I had
But now you see me
Through a different colored lens
And we both know how it ends
I promise I can change
You promise you won't hurt again
But who are we to play pretend?