ill

It rained on my birthday
Thanks for the text though
For a quick second
It really let me forget no
But when I came back down
Oh it felt all wrong
Yea it was still raining
And you were still long gone

I'm not happy I still want you
Cuz I want you to be happy
There's a part of me I hate
That hopes that maybe you still want me
Am I just a shitty human
Or are humans all just shitty
I don't know

Oh I get physically ill
When I think about
You getting physical with someone else
Fuck that
I guess it's your right to do so
And it's my right to feel like shit

I still think about you
In the shower
Wash the shampoo out my hair
Not too long ago I'd open up my eyes
And you'd be standing there

I still think about you
In the shower
Used to help me wash my back
Now I sit and let the water hit me
Wondering who's feeling your hands

I'm not happy I still want you
Cuz I want you to be happy
There's a part of me I hate
That hopes that maybe you still want me
Am I just a shitty human
Or are humans all just shitty
I don't know

Oh I get physically ill
When I think about
You getting physical with someone else
Fuck that
I guess it's your right to do so
And it's my right to feel like shit