Curtain Call, Pt. 2

Does it feel like every year's the hardest and every shade's the darkest?
You're a needle in a haystack spilled cocaine in the carpet
Is it ever worth the hardship? Are we always making progress?
Have we made it through that part yet or back to where we started?
Life on stage looks perfect till you peel back the curtain
There's these fears you'll need to face in the places you're not certain
Not all days are long and some long days have purpose
Not all wounds will heal but the deep ones need nurses
It's all changing shape but at any given state
I'll learn how to breathe out and keep down the flames
I'm all outta faith with no gods in the way
If there's someone there it's me now believing I'm safe

I can't feel my face anymore (anymore)
I can't love you like I did (oh yeah) before (oh yeah)
I'm sorry I'm anxious, I'm sorry I'm lost (so lost)
You know I can't take it 'cause I'm so gone (so gone)
And when I get wasted it's close to my chest (my chest)
I keep all my secrets they'll die with my death

Picturesque moments seem close when you're frozen in time
But our dreams in that part of me died in Van Nuys
That's over, it's this now and we're in denial
Just can't endure the pandering, no compromise
From hurtful to hopeful in a matter of trials
These blessings ran up, depression subsides
It's there still, I'm careful but twice as alive
If I ever was or ever could keep up the life
Said autumn I'd call it but I changed my mind
Was beaten to a pulp till I pulled out a knife
Are you steering your ship or just along for the ride
Is there comfort in the current or do you push against the tide?

I can't feel my face anymore (anymore)
I can't love you like I did (oh yeah) before (oh yeah)
I'm sorry I'm anxious, I'm sorry I'm lost (so lost)
You know I can't take it 'cause I'm so gone (so gone)
And when I get wasted it's close to my chest (my chest)
I keep all my secrets they'll die with my death