For You

(альбом: Through The Static - 2019)

Yeah and I've been thinking
I just wanna get away from this place
The love and the way that it tastes
I'll probably feel better in outer space
But I'm here in my bed with these songs
And its 8pm I think I hate my friends
Cause they're all on drugs so we just make pretend
That everything's alright
Everything's all right when you don't have to feel
And you forgot last night
Yeah I'm 14 staring up at the ceiling in my room
Glow in the dark stars peeling off of the roof
Thinking the universe isn't far but its huge
And I've never felt so small

And I just wish
That someone would call
And tell me I'm ok
You're supposed to fall

Yeah but pick it back up
And most of these people ain't real they just act tough
They say a strong man doesn't show emotions
But the weakest ones left are the ones that can't love uh
They say its all in my head
And I be pulling up the covers and the sheets in my bed
Life ain't like the movies and the books I read
But they look so happy and I wish that was me
So I've got a lot to say
I'm terrified that you won't listen to it anyway
So I just write it all down with this pen
Lay back and I wait for the world to end

I am not strong
Just hanging on
But I'll do my best for you
It's never harder to
To try and muster on
But I can't leave the rest for you

Yeah and superman is a hero that we all think we like
But we only relate with him because of the kryptonite
A human condition
A chink in the armor
I got a blur in my vision
And now I think of my father
And how he left and I can never forgive him for what he did
But how do I really know I wouldn't have done the same as him
Easy to say when you don't walk in his shoes
And haven't built up enough to have something to lose

Yeah. I lost another day of the week
Laying in my room, not awake or asleep
And death kinda sounds like a vacation to me
They said escape's down the road its not across the street
Fucking tripping. Living with negative disposition
I been hoping that magic is really magic but it isn't
And I think that I'm in love but she doesn't notice my existence
So I guess a human touch doesn't accurately measure distance
It's a vicious cycle when depression really gets in
Wonder if its circumstance or predisposition
And all these teachers don't listen
I'm not driven
I don't even have a key in the ignition. Yeah

I've got a lot to say. But I know that you won't listen to it anyway
So I just write it all down with this pen
Lay back and I wait for the world to end
And I just wish that someone would call
And tell me I'm ok
You're supposed to fall

I am not strong
Just hanging on
But I'll do my best for you
It's never harder to
To try and muster on
But I can't leave the rest
I am not strong
Just hanging on
But I'll do my best for you
It's never harder to
To try and muster on
But I can't leave the rest for you

Well of course. See that's what so insane about it. We're laughing back at you. See we're here in the future. And you. You're there in the past. That's what so insane about it. We're laughing back at you. And he who laughs last laughs best