Falling

(альбом: Gamblin On A Whiteboy 4 - 2011)

You know somebody once told me that change is the only thing that will never change
That same person told me that if I want to change my circumstances I'll only change
when the pain that it will take to change is greater than the pain it actually takes to remain the same
So saying that the horror of my situation has to outweigh the discomfort it will actually take to turn around

I'm feelin like I'm falling
And everybody keeps callin
And I don't think they know what
What I"m going through going through going through
What about the late nights
I was chillin at the grave sight
I'm feelin like I hate life
This is what I'm going through going through
What am I gonna do

This for the gangstas in the trap
This is for all the hustlas
This for the woman that just struggles as a single mother
This for the ones house the house livin on the Street
Because they realize that money doesn't grow on trees
This for the ones with an addiction Lord open they eyes
Give them the strength to quit before they overdose and die
These streets are crazy now
Lord it's straight insanity
I done seen prescription pills, ruin a whole family
My mama doin bad
My cousin in the pen
Daddy drinkin again
Lord let this stress end
This for the ones that had to bury they best friend
I'm talkin crew thick
I'm talkin next to kin

I'm feelin like I'm falling
And everybody keeps callin
And I don't think they know what
What I"m going through going through going through
What about the late nights
I was chillin at the grave sight
I'm feelin like I hate life
This is what I'm going through going through
What am I gonna do

She's such a good woman
Why is she actin foolish
She coulda went to college
Coulda been an honor student
Baby daddy died in the streets
She ain't deserving that
Now she's having sex for OC's, Tabs, and Percocet's
Since the recession can't nobody get a decent job
So they gotta beat so hard or hit the streets and rob
They work they ass off but they don't get a day off
If they don't get the payoff they just surrounded by chaos
What about my 9 to 5'as
About to go insane
They work they life away
And still ain't got a fucking thing
And what about the man that nightly opens up a bottle
Cuz it's the only way he knows to deal with all his problems

I'm feelin like I'm falling
And everybody keeps callin
And I don't think they know what
What I"m going through going through going through
What about the late nights
I was chillin at the grave sight
I'm feelin like I hate life
This is what I'm going through going through
What am I gonna do

Okay I got a deal with triple six and lil white
But put that to the side this is what I'm livin like
I got a deal but I'm so broke it isn't funny
But every time my phone rings they asking me for money
My niece is 14
She's having sex
That isn't cool
What's even worse she fucked a 24 year old dude
Wish that I had the power to pull Dre out the grave
And spend a day going to let him watch his kids play
I think about Sams every time I write a song
But I don't take the time to grab the phone and call his mom
I'm sick to my stomach
Lord I ain't feelin well
Had the same nightmare every night they end up killing real
Struggle got to fear
Case they want him in a cell
Searchin for heaven
Cuz right now I feel I live in hell
I thank the Lord that every day I'm a man of prayer
Cuz if it wasn't for God I wouldn't be stayin here
Stacy lost a sister right in front of her
That's fucked up
Wish I could find the dude that killed her
And go shoot his truck up
And she keeps calling me
I know she needs a friend lately
But I'm so bitter I don't take that to consideration
Fuck it I'm sorry Stacy
Love you
You knew that
Just call me anytime I'll be there I done proved that
They say that heaven's for the sinners too
I hope it's true
And I'm just tellin y'all what the fuck I'm going through
You see we fear not the things that we know
But we only fear what we don't know
What we're not comfortable with
We can't see
What's not tangible to us
But the Bible says that faith is the substance of things hoped for and the evidence of things not seen
So sometimes we just have to leap out on a branch of faith
And we all know God honors faith