Life

(альбом: A Beautiful Disaster - 2020)

If I could put my problems in a paper
Then I'd roll 'em up and blow 'em away
If I could find a pill to solve 'em
I would take a bottle and I'd be okay
If I could fit my sorrows in a glass
I'd pour a double shot and drink 'em away
If life was that easy then I'd never have
To worry for the rest of my days yeah yeah yeah
But life just ain't that easy, oh no, no no
It's taken its toll on me deep down, in my soul

Cheers, bottoms up
I wish that I could roll my problems up
Wish I could put 'em in a pill and just swallow 'em
Wish I could solve 'em every time I pick the bottle up
Then I would chug, chug
You know that I would kill it, get fucked up
I wish that that would end it
Drowning in the liquor meant the drama would be finished
But in reality that would just be the beginning
I really got a feeling that it's time for me to change
Instead of really dealing with it, I just keep running away
I gotta start dealing with the shit that's on my plate
But it's hard when I'm sick from the shit that I done ate
And I'm nauseous
And it's hard to sleep at night when I'm turning and tossing
And it's hard for a man like me to accept my losses
What do we do now, when you froze inside
And it's cold outside, and the heat goes out
When you're already late and you gotta detour cause the streets shutdown
And it's all on you cause you know you can't let your people down
You gotta go in beast mode now

If I could put my problems in a paper
Then I'd roll 'em up and blow 'em away
If I could find a pill to solve 'em
I would take a bottle and I'd be okay
If I could fit my sorrows in a glass
I'd pour a double shot and drink 'em away
If life was that easy then I'd never have
To worry for the rest of my days yeah yeah yeah
But life just ain't that easy, oh no, no no
It's taken its toll on me deep down, in my soul

All my life I been fucking up, all my life I been not enough
It's hard to learn to love when your mama just treat you like you ain't nothing
She chose her man over her kids
Stuck with him through a bid
But she won't answer my fucking calls
Man that shit just bring me to tears but fuck that
I gotta be strong cause I know my son is watching
I gotta make sure my daughter see her daddy thriving
Cause these kids gon' do what you do but not what you say
I'm teaching 'em that it's not okay to be just okay, that's never okay
Feeling stress as I sit and reminisce about my open cases
A nigga meditate just to renovate all of my broken places
On the real I think I need therapy
Cause some of these thoughts I be having just be scaring me
Scaring me uh

If I could put my problems in a paper
Then I'd roll 'em up and blow 'em away
If I could find a pill to solve 'em
I would take a bottle and I'd be okay
If I could fit my sorrows in a glass
I'd pour a double shot and drink 'em away
If life was that easy then I'd never have
To worry for the rest of my days yeah yeah yeah
But life just ain't that easy, oh no, no no
It's taken its toll on me deep down, in my soul

Life ain't just that easy, oh no
It's taking a toll on me deep down in my soul