Mood Swings

(альбом: You're Not Alone - 2020)

I don't know if I'm gonna make it
I swallow my pride like the...

All these mood swings might break me
I can't sleep, my brain keeps on racing
Scared I won't survive
I been losing sleep now
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
I don't know what's going on nah
Change my mind, I'll try when I want that
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back

When my mind goes, I go psycho
I won't lie, I been searching for something in the dark days
Demons coming closer
I try to find myself, I been looking for some closure
How many times can I try?
How many times will I fall again?
I don't wanna make no one cry
Been hurting myself way too much

I don't know if I'm gonna make it
I swallow my pride like the pills I'm taking
Swear all my life been too complacent
Just wanna be happier

All these mood swings might break me
I can't sleep, my brain keeps on racing
Scared I won't survive
I been losing sleep now
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
I don't know what's going on nah
Change my mind, I'll try when I want that
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back

Dreams of fame and fortune, all I had at 17
There was a goal that I envisioned, gave it all of me
I made sacrifices to escape so I could finally be free
Grew up around domestic violence, gave me P.T.S.D
I made a 7 figure salary at 23
Still feel like an underdog because the game don't notice me
That's alright with me because I never like the spotlight, that's lost time
'Cause views and interactions never equal a like
You know the pain goes on and on and I still hate myself
Relationships fall apart, would never date myself
And I been wasting all my time on people that don't give me nothing, but all ask for something
Nirvana tatted on my arm
"Don't Panic" tatted on my wrist
I made way too many tracks that they all wonder how I did
But they're never gonna learn it, I been working since a kid
'Little Revive' blowing up, but it still hurts to exist

I don't know if I'm gonna make it
I swallow my pride like the pills I'm taking
Swear all my life been too complacent
Just wanna be happier

All these mood swings might break me
I can't sleep, my brain keeps on racing
Scared I won't survive
I been losing sleep now
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back
I don't know what's going on nah
Change my mind, I'll try when I want that
Take my time, I'll try when I fall back