Broken

(альбом: NO THANK YOU - 2022)

Feeling broken, and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken, and you cannot fix it
Feeling broken, and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken, and you cannot fix it

What does it mean to be broken?
A wound is painfully open
The beauty is in the finding the darkest parts of the ocean
Deep waters in motion, the tide was coming in heavy
I always knew I was chosen to handle whatever chose me
Picking all of my poisons, abandoning my emotions
Questions got me feeling like I should never have spoken
Damn right I'm spilling, the narrative, they keep switching
All I wanted to do was uplift the women
You gotta move if you ain't backing the vision
They wanna see you a victim and giving up on your mission
I been hitting some lows and never telling a soul
You can have everything and nothing, still nobody knows
There's a reason why the doves will never fly with the crows
Chapters eventually closed, your friends will turn into foes
Everybody so obsessed with the CEO
She probably got the most troubles, that she'll never disclose
Dealing with the dark by taking the white to the nose
Poker face and now she'll continue in with the show
Scrutinize for freeing the truth about the system
All she wanted to do was uplift the women

Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix it
Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix it

What does it mean to be broken?
Feels your light has been stolen
Can't recognize you are golden
And you don't see that you're loved
Smoking weed on your ones, isolating yourself
Am I even enough? Then, you question yourself
Man, this week has been tough, been saying it for a year
How do I disappear? Can I hide from my fears?
Sometimes a feather can feel like a stone
When your soul weak, you can feel that shit in your bones
She was lonely, taking anyone to the home
Getting cozy, internal insecurities travelling so deep
We all go through our hardships
But no life books show knees to the carpet
And pray you're being guided by a force, so you can't sink
Look how far you've come, and see you've only just started
You exist, you alive, you are deserving of life
You are a beacon of light, you are determined to fly
You have a journal inside you have the power to write
You have the opportunity every day to decide, choose love
It might just blossom into a new love
But whatever happens, just know that you've won

Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix it
Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix

Ain't no happiness in it
Fake smiles just to deal with all the pain you've been given
As a child, they don't tell you that your dreams can come into fruition
You never been to that place you envision
Sky gave you limits you had no choice but to accept
Forced into work to contribute to the profit of Britain
That sneeze'll be blessed, but the coffin'll kill 'em
It's the armageddon city, this shit might damage your soul
They won't take the weight of you when you can manage the load
Like they're just waiting to hear a fucking crack in your bones
Generational trauma you've had to deal with alone
No father, how do you become a man on your own?
Did the best that you could, with the tools you were loaned
Didn't know how to break the mould, and now you're raising a clone
Gives me comfort to believe you want the best for your seed
Wishful thinking, if the attentions don't align with the deed
And if what you hear contradicts what you read, war ready
They travel to this country for peace
Crabs in a barrel, your neighbour feeling the same shit
But he might screw you, if someone offers a payslip
No-one ever told you your mind is not to be played with
No-one ever taught you 'bout moderation and patience
Under all the eyes, and the pressure, and the scrutiny
Why is mental health a taboo in the Black community?

Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix it
Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix

It shouldn't be a norm to live your life as a tragedy
To live your life in a state of confusion and agony
Promises you made reflect the promises they gave you
And all these harsh experiences don't reflect your age
No family to save you, no friends to aid you
Can't even speak English, so there's no-one to explain to, only God to pray to
They denied you of your hope, but you found a way through
That's a breakthrough
21, landed in London with hardly any funds
27, tryna get back to being 21
'Cause nothing's changed, still no money, but more things to pay for
So the blood pressure rises slowly, by the day
Work two jobs, just so rice is on the children's plate
Landlord tells you, "This is the last time you can be late"
Health issues that you try to suppress
But all your health issues are derived from stress
You tried your best, gave an arm and a leg
Only tears and a cold house is what you've been left with
Self-hate for the Black skin you were blessed with
Hard to believe there's something greater you were destined for
Prepping for, gave your life to others who didn't invest in yours
A broken soul, selected for God's plan
Everything will be what's it's meant to, when it's in God's hands

Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix it
Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix it
Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix it
Feeling broken and you don't exist
When you're feeling broken and you cannot fix it