Last 20 Years

The sun seen my day, hear a lot of things around me
Wanna say I made it, going up around me
Driving in the city, traffic in the city
Driving in the dark, now she saying that she miss me
Last twenty years, I've been stuck inside a cage
Vision getting blurry, I've been doing all my pages
So fuck you too, all my demons saying, "Hello"
But you're already leaving

I got a million dollars, but I don't know how to get it
Out of my head
And I've been filling up all these cups with all my woes
But I still feel dead
I know I gotta get up out of bed, but I just don't feel like it
Gun to my head, yeah, just for the thrill of it
Wasting my time fucking 'round and sipping gin
Such a cliché, I'm just a fucked up kid, yeah

Sitting at the door like a dog
When you gonna come around?
We've been waiting for a song
Ooh, I guess I've been sedated, nothing on my plate
I've been cruising up in space, autopilot on my way
Pulling out my teeth, could I be crazy to believe
That I could sit around, a million bottles at my feet?
No consequences in the headlights
Oh, the edge is coming quicker than I realized

Filling up my head with all these lies
Everything around me drifting out into the sky
If you could've been a star tomorrow, would you try?
Or would you have thrown it all away into the night?
Chained up to my bed, I suffocate
All this shit I tuck away I couldn't hide, it's on my face
They say, "Let me see you smile"
And, "Let me see you smile"

I got a million dollars, but I don't know how to get it
Out of my head
And I've been filling up all these cups with all my woes
But I still feel dead
I got a million dollars, but I don't know how to get it
Out of my head
And I've been filling up all these cups with all my woes
But I still feel dead