Poison

That's no other feeling on earth
I try to feel
But it hurts
I feel like a million miles away
Dealing with this poison

It felt so far away
Looking back I've realized
I was just hiding from the pain
Check, my head was constantly in the clouds
That's why I feel like I'm lost in space
Dealing with this poison

Yo, I amm lucky just to be alive
'Cause I've pushed it to the limit
Now I've realized
Listen
I shouldn't even be here
So every night I thank God
That I can think and see clear
Lost in space and feeling stranded
I was on a mothership
And I've finally landed
People that I love
They didn't leaved me stranded
So I'm back to finish what we started
How we planned it
'Cause after black magic
This will attract savage
Went from above average
Down to a drug addict
The devil on my shoulder with a pitchfork
Piss-poor
Thinking what the hell do I do this for?
But now I'm back
And I can kill on the freestyle
But you won't see my smile
Cause I'm embarrassed of my teeth now
Taking pills
Now the sugar did a number on them
And that just one of another other hundred problems
I'm an ugly goblin
I'm a dirty troll
Misguided angel with a bruised face and hurting soul
Sitting in the corner
Staring out into a distance
Truly like a zombie
Hospital gown and wrist band
Listen

That's no other feeling on earth
I try to feel
But it hurts
I feel like a million miles away
Dealing with this poison

It's nothing like it
And that's the problem
I felt like I was a million miles away
I see clearly now, tho
Shit's real

Two years later
Now I write the second verse
I'm on the verge of blowing up on every record burst
I don't even think about some coke
And grabbing opiates
I'm making money now from snapping like a scorpion
Shows sober, now 'causelife is full of choices
My voice makes a girl's pussy moist as some oysters
And every night I like to find myself another groupie
Without a straw stuck up her nose
And fucking perfect boobies
That means that she ain't high on cocaine
Hard to have a conversation with a girl with no brain
Not that I really wanna talk a lot
I'm tired from the show
Just rub my back and make my cock a rock
Yeah, and suck it like you mean it
Pretend my dick's a big rock of crack
And you're fiending
Not that I've leaned to fuck for hours without drinking
Looking back
I don't even know what I was thinking

That's no other feeling on earth
I try to feel
But it hurts
I feel like a million miles away
Dealing with this poison

How many of you understand real pain
Living inside of real trap
A day to day trap
Everyday of your life
It's hard to explain
That's no other feeling like it
I'm so thankful now I can finally see clear
I'm living life now