Hate This Feeling

Can't remember last night, I hate this feeling
Feel like I been fucking up lately
I black out and embarrass myself
That's why I feel like everyone hates me
All these times I've apologized
Really it don't make no difference
All these pills and all these lines
That ketamine fuck with my vision

I've been feeling sort of fucked up
Maybe I need tough love, 'cause I can't take it
I'm not who I once was
Don't know what the fuck's up
Don't know how to change it
But I know that I'm not myself
Somewhere down the line I must have lost myself
How are these the cards I dealt
When I'm drinking I start thinking I should off myself
Maybe I should make a call for help
'Cause I can't believe that this is how it all turned out
I'm too deep I cannot climb out
Cause its hard for me to move with both my arms tied down
And I know this isn't me
I swear to god I hate this feeling
Long nights with no memory
How is this still appealing

Can't remember last night, I hate this feeling
Feel like I been fucking up lately
I black out and embarrass myself
That's why I feel like everyone hates me
All these times I've apologized
Really it don't make no difference
All these pills and all these lines
That ketamine fuck with my vision

Mamma said I'm gonna be fine
She only know half of the story
Only feel alright in the night
Wanna end my life in the morning
How am I supposed to write a happy song when I'm sad
I see your face think of all the times from the past
Yeah I really thought we would last
Would have given you all that I have
I let you slip right through my fingers
Had your heart in my hand
Must have been part of the plan yeah
When I met you I was gone off a half

Can't remember last night, I hate this feeling
Feel like I been fucking up lately
I black out and embarrass myself
That's why I feel like everyone hates me
All these times I've apologized
Really it don't make no difference
All these pills and all these lines
That ketamine fuck with my vision