Not Proud

I'm not proud of what I did to you
Not proud of what I did to you
You're worth more than what I meant to you
You don't need
You don't deserve to

Think I feel it's a dub when it's an L
Think I enjoyed all the love when you fell
If you wonder where it got me know it's hell
Though it prolly don't help when nobody can tell

Can't really pay without knowing the cost
Just don't let your regrets be not giving your all
You were always better than the old me
Can't let you go without tellin you he told me

And I gotta live with the choice
Been listening to the part of your heart that I took
Now I gotta give it a voice
I feel like I live in the void I created inside of you
I was the one you confided to
Whoa
Should be on side of you
Said I would die for you
And I know you felt that lie to your soul

Just so you know
She wasn't better at anything
You had that heavenly energy
No, it ain't fair
Cuz if you had chose him to me
I would've prolly shown empathy
Now it's your fault, you're too good
Move the mark, where you stood
I wouldn't start, like you could
Should've played my part, like you would

Don't know how I thought I was worth it
Creepin what I got is perfect
Living I guess I'm still learning
Learning to the live with the burden

Don't know how I thought I was worth it
Creepin what I got is perfect
Living I guess I'm still learning
Learning to the live with the burden

I'm not proud of what I did to you
Not proud of what I did to you
You're worth more than what I meant to you
You don't need
You don't deserve to

Think I feel it's a dub when it's an L
Think I enjoyed all the love when you fell
If you wonder where it got me know it's hell
Though it prolly don't help when nobody can tell

Can't really pay without knowing the cost
Just don't let your regrets be not giving your all
You were always better than the old me
Can't let you go without tellin you he told me

No, I can't let you go, can't let you go
I've been blowing on the smoke, blowing on the smoke
And some girls been around
I've been fucking around plenty of them
Now I don't fuck with many of them
Now I don't really fuck with any of them now (I don't)
And I'm not proud of what I did
Told you time and time again
I'm not proud of none of this, no
I'm not too proud to call again
And I'm not trying to call it quits
At least I call it how it is, yea
Blowing of steam, I've been blowing off a little bit a steam
Doing your thing you've been out here doing your thing
I'ma be good, but not as good without my queen around, no

I'm not proud of what I did to you
Not proud of what I did to you
You're worth more than what I meant to you
You don't need
You don't deserve to

Think I feel it's a dub when it's an L
Think I enjoyed all the love when you fell
If you wonder where it got me know it's hell
Though it prolly don't help when nobody can tell

Can't really pay without knowing the cost
Just don't let your regrets be not giving your all
You were always better than the old me
Can't let you go without tellin you he told me