Difficult

Every minute ticking by I'm
Hoping that I'll go and talk to you, but
Contemplating every time I'm
Blowing every shot I got with you
I'm a ghost, I'm a down right wreck
They tell me break a leg, but I'll probably break my neck
At least that's what it feels like heart beating so fast
Tryna slow it down, so I can keep up with the program
Oh, oh, oh, why is it so difficult?
My whole life feels like I've been invisible
Just like a video game I can't beat
And you're the boss at the end that's invincible
And I, I just need some confidence
And by your looks girl I think you got a lot of it
Like a milkshake, vanilla, and chocolate
Mixing opposites, now time to put the cherry on top of it

I've been known to wait too long for everything in life
But now it's time to change my ways
'Cause my heart won't stay inside
My feelings are escaping me
I've been holding on so long
My feelings are escaping me
I've been holding on too long

Aye, I think it's about time, walking up
Making sure that my hair looks fine
Pretend a movie scene, boosting my self-esteem
Got a shake in my legs and some blood in my cheeks
Here goes the outcast, making his debut
It's hard to tell a lie, but harder to tell the truth
It's lunch time now and she in the room of books
Studying hard, like a good girl should
We in the same math class
So maybe that could help me
Come up with a line, but my brain still empty
Cast up now, so I tap her on the shoulder
Hoping I got luck like a four leaf clover
I'm kind of scared and I'm kind of happy
Then she turns around and she smiles right at me
Don't know what to say, but I hope it goes okay
As long as I'm with you I got a little bit of faith, yuh