Lived It Twice

I already played this out in my head
Every worst case way of how this can end
Got a 24/7 fear of rejection
And it hasn't even happened yet
But I already played this out in my head

The way you're gonna let me down, block me out
And mess me up again
Wish I didn't think this far before it starts
'Cause I'll just mess me up again

Now I lived it twice
Once in my mind
Once in real life
And when you say goodbye
I'll just get hurt
One too many times
Overthinking plus you leaving leads to double the heartbreak
You'll never know my half of the pain
Cause I lived it twice, twice

I've imagined every word that you'll say
Burned me once without you walking away
Got a 24/7 fear of rejection
Now you're the one to blame
Can't imagine anything going my way

Like how you're gonna let me down, block me out
And mess me up again
Wish I didn't think this far before it starts
Cause I'll just mess me up again

Now I lived it twice
Once in my mind
Once in real life
And when you say goodbye
I'll just get hurt
One too many times
Overthinking plus you leaving leads to double the heartbreak
You'll never know my half of the pain
Cause I lived it twice, twice

Now I lived it twice
Once in my mind
Once in real life
And when you say goodbye
I'll just get hurt
One too many times
Overthinking plus you leaving leads to double the heartbreak
You'll never know my half of the pain
Cause I lived it twice, twice
Cause I lived it twice, twice