Trapped

Cool so, Saturday 12th of May
2:4 oh my bad 2:37
169 in the studio

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I can tell when someone's jealous of me
The evil look in their eyes
They won't support you if they feel like you're above them
The only reason why they don't wanna see you shine
I see a lot of things on my timeline
People think I'm here for a short period of time
If you think that's true, then you're losing your mind
Nothing worth having comes easy in life
If it comes easy then it won't last long
I guess that's why they fell off after one song
Niggas get cut if they ain't on what I'm on
Invite them to a show and they all tag along
Invite them to a meeting still see if they want to come
Trust me, nobody comes
The difference between me and them
I know a lot of people, I haven't got a lot of friends
If you lie once then, you'll probably lie again
It doesn't make sense
The same ones on Twitter are the ones that are in ends
Trying to find a way out [?]
Shes gone by 10 AM
And I gotta got paid now
I ain't playing games now
If you got a problem then we coming straight round
I said if you got a problem then we coming straight round
We all live and learn
Tables get turned, bridges get burnt but money never gets returned
People only show up when they know you've got perks
How do you curse the ne that gave birth
I know I shouldn't say it but i'm gonna say it
I still love my ex right down to the earth
If you want me show me how much you're worth
Be careful how you spend all the money that you earn

Everything I have in my life I deserve
Everything I have in my life I'm so grateful
Once upon a time I needed help I wasn't stable
Now I don't speak I put money on the table
Last year my life was so painful
I was very wasteful
I wasn't faithful
And I wasn't able to get all them things that I wanted on the shelf
My mum needed support but I really couldn't help

My ends don't want the best for me
Sometimes I think my own friends don't want the best for me
Many guys will draw me out and test me
Many guys talk online but they don't roll
They ain't got the same energy
It's jokes cause I'm not where I'm meant to be
If I see you it's meant to be
And tell your girl stop texting cause she'll never have sex with me
And if we do, she won't forget me
Look
I wanna know the reason why these people don't like me
A black boy 21 providing for his mum
I guess that's the reason why these people don't like me
Cause I've done all the shit that they fucking ain't done
I've done all the shit that they fucking can't do
My whole squad come through
And leave your yard empty like it's Black Friday sale
On my life you better think about your moves

Dreadful
I started getting replies off of girls that aired when
I was doing "I'm on my grind"
Incredible
Same girl that said my music's demonic said she wants to make some time
Eventful
I just got a text from your girl and she's saying that I've crossed her mind
Mental
Keep testing my patience I swear I'll lose my mind
I stopped explaining myself when I realized people only understand from their level of perception
I clocked that certain man don't like how my life's changed
And how I'm the center of attention
I got too much pressure on me right now
I ain't got time for all the love and affection
Something bad and you're all in my mention
But something good where you gone that's the question
Normally people don't hate you, they hate your success
But with me people hate me and they hate my success
Maybe it's because it took me quicker than the rest
Before I touched high school I was running on my own legs
Now I'm 21 and I'm running with my heart
I wasn't doing things that kids should be doing
Cause my dad weren't around and he never played his part
Every single day I was looking out the window
Waiting for him to turn a corner
But he broke my heart and made me cry and made me realize
Girls don't want me for me
But that's just how it is

See
You think I asked for this
You don't know what I done to get half of this
Ask my fucking nigga Lawrence he can vouch for it
If the number ain't saved I don't answer it
You stabbed me in my back
9 through stitches then I gave back chasing money and bitches
Started chasing my dream
Why do you think many guys never succeeded
Jealousy and greed
And my mum said that you are what you eat
I made time for loads of people but they threw it back at me
So now I'm selfish with my time
But it's ironic that I've got time for all these girls that shouldn't have time
I shouldn't have a headache but ever since I started doing music properly I've had one every fucking day
I shouldn't be bad but how do you expect me to have all them things my mum couldn't have
That's the reason why I've done things I shouldn't have
I ask God to guide me
But I still feel trapped
And I don't know what I want from this anymore
And I don't wanna girlfriend anymore
And I ain't got time to see my friends anymore
A lot is happening behind closed doors
I feel drained and I ain't eating properly
I'm starting to have problems mentally
The other day I just copped a Monclear
But it didn't feel right cause my vision's still cloudy

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