River

(albüm: The River - 2018)

Just hollow shells of what have once held vibrant life. You hear me right now? No matter how much else you may have going for you if the river ever leaves you die.

If I go down by the river to pray
I don't even know what I'd say
I guess I'll save it for another day
But Lord I gotta know
If somehow my body dies before I awaken
Where will my soul be taken?
I guess we'll save that for another day
Lord, save me just another day

Stuck inside this train of thought
Slowly getting derailed by the pain of loss
Tryna paint this picture, fuck it, paint it black, paint it all
Still not even sure if I'm gon' make it far
All I know is that
I've burned every single thing I've got, paid the cost
Still gonna be humble even after taking off
Still gonna give thank you's to the ones that led the path when I was lost
But I'm distraught looking back on my life
My family and my relationship with 'em
Two claim this patience to a villain
Patiently awaiting cancer to kill 'em
And still I won't sing my sorrows through those church pews
It's hard to talk to God when I ain't following his virtues
Damn, all this in a verse, gift and curse
Personal thoughts that I write in a letter
For people that won't even care what I say
'Cause they'll say that our old shit is better
And streaming's free so they probably ain't even bought this album
Still we ain't shit without 'em
I gotta calm myself and quit this shouting
Mama telling me to pray about it
Clearly, but, I doubt he'll hear me

If I go down by the river to pray
I don't even know what I'd say
I guess I'll save it for another day
But Lord I gotta know
If somehow my body dies before I awaken
Where will my soul be taken?
I guess we'll save that for another day
Lord, save me just another day

If I told you that I was the son of God would you believe me
If I came to you in the night with the light where you could see me
If I lit up the world and destroyed everything that was evil
Yet I'm drowning in this river persecuted by my people
I was baptized and the water turned black
'Cause I'm thrown off course and my mind's off track
Set my compass due North but I turn right back
The footprints in the sand were that hard to track
Man, 'cause I done read all these scriptures
From Egyptian all to the Christian
And it's kinda hard for me to sit and listen
And my mind ain't getting better second guessing everything I've ever known
So I'm stressing that's my lesson
You speak to me in riddles and expect me not to question
And just take everything that is thrown at me as a blessing
I've got a strong mind, I'm not tryna play the victim
'Cause I believe in you I just do not believe you listen

They didn't come to see a show. Somebody told 'em their cancer could be healed here. Somebody told 'em their life could be changed here. And you don't change that with technology. And you don't change that with program. And you don't change that with production. I'll tell you what does that. It's a bunch of people that stay in touch with the river.

If I go down by the river to pray
I don't even know what I'd say
I guess I'll save it for another day
But Lord I gotta know
If somehow my body dies before I awaken
Where will my soul be taken?
I guess we'll save that for another day
Lord, save me just another day