Beautiful

I'm the biggest loner you'll ever meet
I walk alone in these empty streets,
My life is harder then it could be
Since every friend I had turned on me
Seems like when everything was right,
It just all went wrong,
Now I'm staring into my mic
Tryna record the words to these songs
I'm not trying to cry about it,
Because god says I should man up
My feelings are so jammed up
I can't keep calm I just tantrum
I take a hand gun
Point it to myself, see who would be the first to help
But no one would, leave me to bleed to my own death
It's for the fucking best
Everyone said they had my back,
When I turn around I only see a shadow,
In front of me is my enemies smiling,
With hammers and daggers,
I close my eyes prepare for disaster,
As I do memories move backwards,
And my old friends who said they had my back welp,
This is what happened after, ugh

[Hook:]
I swear you don't mean shit, everytime I pass you
(Everytime I pass you you ain't my friend)
Mr. you don't know me anymore I gotta ask you
(Gotta ask you what did I do)
To deserve all the shit that you put me through
(Let me know)
When you know damn well I stayed true to you
(What did I do)
To deserve all the shit that you put me through
(Let me know)
When you know damn well I stayed true to you

What did I ever do to deserve to get hurt,
I put them first, and they put me last,
When I was at my worst they would simply laugh
& I stare at god I swear he winked back,
I would never think that, my friends would
Be the ones I grow to hate, your the
Reason there's a lot on my plate one of my
Friends would tryna get with the girl I was with one,
One would snitch, one changed his ways so much
I swear we barely kept in touch like last mouth
Called me up didn't even know who the fuck it
Was I was like what's up he said nothing much
Think you can borrow me a couple bucks?
Omg wtf whys it when you need something is the
Only time that you would hit me up, couldn't even finish
My sentence because that bitch hung up
Every girl around here so stuck up
Guess they can't ever handle the truth what
Happened to you, my girl best friend now
She a slut, dick thirsty she can't get enough
Everybody changin I stayed the same
Because y'all, y'all make me say

[Hook]

I literally have no friends,
Honestly I never needed them I wish I could go back and
Take back all the time that I spent trying to fit in, all
I needed was one friend, a counselor who would listen
On why I feel distant, or discover whats missin in my
Life to make me somebody that I was not I was so blind
I wonder why I didn't stop, I say hey you ain't being
Yourself smokin and drinkin by myself, in depression
No friends to help, self destructive that's how I felt,
Had no one that I could tell but I finally found myself
Now I'm doing what my best friend said that I couldn't
Now that I got big they act like they didn't they like
Omg he actually did it so much recognition for the music
Id be spitten they just know because my shit so real
That's just how they feel, I may not have a major deal
But I could prove that I do have skill, my friends
Didn't help me at all all they did was point out my flaws
Never even shared one fucken song
Didn't even help to put me on now that
I am blowing up big they act like supports
All they would give who the fuck you think
Your fooling bitch? your nothing to me
Just a fake ass friend uh