Bill$

(albüm: Butterfly Boy - 2019)

Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid

I don't care if all my debts settled
I'm dealing with an upset devil, trying to get my head level
Indulging all my vices
Until I'm cold and lifeless
What I call Monday morning
Some people call a crisis
Repeated losses leads to complete exhaustion
The kind that becomes routine when you get defeated this often
It's awful so you just detach
Shit is complete trash
I need to heal, I don't need cash

Every day when I open my eyes, I feel stuck, I feel stuck
I don't know why I even try to wake up, to wake up

Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid

If you pissing me, listen to this PSA
I don't wanna be this cold, it's just in my DNA
It's not malicious either, it's like a vicious fever
Baby girl lift my mood, I wish I could just see her
Attention deprivation gives the sense of desolation
So when you self-destruct, you don't regret the detonation
It's more like finally, no one gonna lie to me
Ooh, I just won the lottery
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
I get a taste when my face hit the pillow case
But then it vanish like vanity at an old age
Don't be surprised if I go the Anna Nicole way

Every day when I open my eyes, I feel stuck, I feel stuck
I don't know why I even try to wake up, to wake up
It's like one big lie when I apologize for who I am, for who I am
I say sorry to the world, I didn't do it all again, all again

Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid
Fuck having the bills paid, I just wanna feel okay
Fuck having the bills paid, fuck having the bills paid