Are You Proud Of Me Now?

You've heard this all before, I'm sat still staring at paper
There's things behind the page for later
Oh I've grown tired, drinking senselessly and wild
I've been yearning for surprise, and now they've caught me in this chamber

There's new profanity displayed as they pull on the lever
So they made a hope filled with deceivers
Oh it's gone too long, the machine was built too strong
Now it seeps through my core
And keeps me held to inky craters
Make me feel alive

Lies, lies, it was pain on the walls
The size of this beating heart takes us all back down again
I reopened memories
You stood and took the bow
Are you proud of me now?

We want you, we want you here to work for us right now
I worked hard to walk away from here
Are you proud of me now?
We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now
I sank deep, you stuck me on repeat
Are you proud of me now?

(We want you here, need you here, need to show you've got more wo-wo-wo-work now, wo-wo-wo-wo, wo-wo-wo-work, wo-wo-wo-work now)
They want me here, they need me here
They have to show me I've got work right now

Deceived by carnal horns, ripping organs out of the cleavers
Too soon to say I'm a believer
Oh how I tried to get lost when worlds collided
Find my own way once deciding to get off the ground, but you drag me down!

How's my family? Where's my sanity?
Better never knowing when the cavernous reality settles in
I won't win, can't begin to tell you everything's a lie and I'm a victim of insanity
Leaving me to rot, to absorb what soon is lost
Hoping immunity brings me community
Hoping on a pipedream, nothing to redeem
When they stop making me feel alive!

(We want you, we want you here to work for us right now
We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now
We want you, we want you here to work for us right now
We need you, we need you, we need you
You've not moved on)
Lies, lies, it was pain on the walls (Moved on, moved on, on right now)
The size of this beating heart takes us all back down again (Moved on, moved on, on right now)
I reopened memories (Moved on, moved on, on right now)
You stood and took the bow
Are you proud of me now?

We want you, we want you here to work for us right now
I worked hard to walk away from here
Are you proud of me now?
We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now
I sank deep, you stuck me on repeat
Are you proud of me now?

(We want you, we want you here to work for us right now)
I played nicely for the longest time
Are you proud of me now?
(We need you, we need to show you've not moved on right now)
The dark secrets have deprived me of light
And I'll find you down below!

(We want you here, need you here, need to show you've got more wo-wo-wo-work now, wo-wo-wo-wo, wo-wo-wo-work, wo-wo-wo-work now)
They want me here, they need me here
They have to show me I've got work right now

I paid the toll for staying dormant
By the side of the curb again
Come and flow with me, close your eyes and you will see
He brought us all to die again
Are you proud of me now?

You stood and took the bow
Are you proud of me now?