Put Me on Ice

(albüm: Kintsugi - 2020)

All my life, did 'em right, way too much I had to sacrifice
When you got the glow they all want the light
Till they dim it so low you can lose your sight
Of who you are, what's your mission
You thought it was love but it's something different
So focused on the good things though
You don't notice they don't treat you like a good thing though
Gaslighting, hindsight it's so frightening
Blindsided, hit fast as grease lightning
Whiplash, heart scabbed, your brain fried
Long nights traveling to the dark side
Construct the Death Star, revenge the best start
The vest is Kevlar, the rest is Brave Heart
Playing with my light I don't take it lightly
I could let it go but that isn't likely
Why I look for love in people who can't give it back (why)
Why do they withdraw moment that I get attached (why)
Why they gotta riff on all the trauma of my past? (Why)
Why I gotta trip like nothing's ever gonna last?
Used to being used but I'm sick of how it feels
Maybe it's a side effect of being too real
Now I know why everybody tend to turn fake
Hard to stay true when it's easy to escape

They just want to put me on ice
Plan b never paying full price
Deadly girl I know I'm too nice
If you want to cuff me I'ma read you my rights
Put me on ice then I'm bound go cold
I'm already iced out I could freeze my soul
If you want to love me then you better grab hold
I don't do second place look at all this gold

Try to leave me cold, and you'll leave me gold
Try to break my heart, try to break my soul
Turn it into art, turn it into gold
Tried to chain me up, till my chains went nuts, and my wrist went cold

Frozen, so go bust me open
I'm used to coping, too used to broken
Know this, the cracks turn me golden
I shine through times where most get corroded
I could never let somebody break my soul
Especially if I'm aware that theirs ain't whole
I don't have the time for a cycle that is toxic
Shouldn't have the time to turn you into a topic
Venom in the lips of the enemy draining energy
Want me then you better be ready to want to better me
Treat me like a dog you disrespecting my pedigree
Got a hell of a memory look how deadly my pen you'll be
I load up the lyrics and fire bullets away
I know that you hear it the verses come with grenades
When I go to war I'm deadly within the page
I'm lacing it with my rage better pray that you're getting saved

Dreams get dark some times
My mind tells me lies
My skies turn so black
Feel I can't come back

Whiplash with the way emotions flow
But I get cash off of how you played me so
It ain't that bad long as I can keep my soul
That's why my neck iced out and my wrist went gold
It's a flex on anybody who tried to break me apart
Shine on anybody who brought me into the dark
I got watercolor tears I turn it all into art
Put it on a stage and scream it out of my heart
Give it to the people who go through the same hurt
Do it for the people who grow through the same dirt
Overcoming evil they know they never deserved
Shining after everything knowing their damn worth

They just want to put me on ice
Plan b never paying full price
Deadly girl I know I'm too nice
If you want to cuff me I'ma read you my rights
Put me on ice then I'm bound go cold
I'm already iced out I could freeze my soul
If you want to love me then you better grab hold
I don't do second place look at all this gold

Try to leave me cold, and you'll leave me gold
Try to break my heart, try to break my soul
Turn it into art, turn it into gold
Tried to chain me up, till my chains went nuts, and my wrist went cold