Move On

Dear Mark, you're the one with the words
But my side should be heard
Think that it's fucking absurd
You talk about me when you rap about her
All of your songs, hear about all of my wrongs
Like you never played me like pong
Like you never went out and did nothing wrong
It's crazy forever turned into so long
And now that you're gone, I had to move on
And I'm happy with him
But I still can't pretend that I didn't go fuck with your friend
Every now and again
I be thinking of then
I be thinking that that was something I would never intend
And especially, when it was me who you trusted
To take all your feelings and try to remend, it's so hard to pretend
I would lie in your bed, giving you head
Listen to all of the things that you said
Listen to all of the lyrics you read
You were chasing a dream, I would party instead
Young and in love, young and we're dumb
I can taste all of the pain in your tongue
I can taste all of my pain in the rum
Knew it was over before it begun
Looking for fun, burning my lungs
Learning my favorite feeling was numb
Bought every dinner, you barely bought one
Maybe I cheat, and then we could be done
That would be dumb, we were so broke
You were the one that turned into a joke
I kept us afloat
You were the one that kept us on the rope, damn
Now you're the man, huh?
I see you turned into somebody I can't stand, huh?
Knowing you, man, it's all part of your plan, huh?
You crazy fuck, I had the chance, I should've ran, uh!
Never would tell me you cared, never were there
Remember that night that we went to the fair?
Every fine girl that walked by, you would stare
See, even when there, Mark, you never were there
If all I care 'bout is my makeup and hair
All you care 'bout is the ego you wear
You tear me apart, continue to tear
Now I'm with someone who actually cares
Fuck you! But I can't keep you off my mind
I'm seeing everything you drop
Sometimes I wish that I was blind
You make me relive my mistake
A million trillion fucking times
See, you're a coward
And a stupid rap persona is what you hide behind
And my whole family still adores you
I tried a million times, I would have only did that for you
I can't act like I don't know you
Every night I would explode, you
Made me feel I was below you
Mark, I wish I could ignore you, but I can't, damn

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone and you are wonderful
It's hard to move on

What do you… have here?
'Cause you tell me you love me again and again
You were only a friend, it was hard to pretend
I wrote so many letters, but never hit send
I was never content, I was set on me being a rapper
I thought about music and thought of you after
It's funny how tears turn to laughter
And tears on the page, they can turn into a masterpiece
That's how you told me to leave
I remember that night, it's as clear as can be
You found a new man, and he loves that you drink
And he loves getting head, but don't care what you think
You look pretty in pink, you look naughty in red
We know these are the words that would never be said
And we're chasing a topic that's over your head
'Cause you think about me every night as you lie in your bed
That's… real

Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone and you are wonderful
It's hard to move on
Near to you, I am healing
But it's taking so long
'Cause though he's gone and you are wonderful
It's hard to move on

Well, I guess we all change
Mark, I guess we all change
I hope that you get everything that you want
As you yell and you stand on the stage
You took all your pain and turned it to fame
They're screaming your name and going insane
I kept all our pics, but threw out the frame
Before I knew Witt, I knew Mark, now they're one and the same
But what about me, motherfucker?
Forgot about me, motherfucker?
Except when you talk about me, motherfucker
I'm tired of hearing 'bout me, motherfucker
Your mouth was a blessing and now it's a weapon
Remember the time and the love we invested
I'm posting a pic and I'm getting attention
My tits and my ass get a favorite a second
See, you were with me but were thinking of her
Now I'm with him and I'm thinking of you
Together to never, whatever we were
We're stuck in a cycle, the cycle is cruel
A couple of fools, stuck in a pool
Of people that want to be cool
See, we're never happy, we're happy
So we keep on searching for love as if love was a jewel
Remember that night that you came to my school?
Stayed up all night and we talked about life
My parents and I, we would constantly fight
You said when you make it, I might be a stay-at-home wife
Apparently that wasn't right
We lived in a moment that lasted a night
And, honestly, Mark, gotta start to move on with your life
Sincerely, a letter we never would write

Like, what are we doing? Like, what am I doing?
Writing these letters, but what am I proving?
I'm stuck in my room and I'm spilling it all
Thinking of what you would say if you call
I might be the biggest mistake of 'em all
My biggest mistake was to think that I never could fall
Like falling for you, falling in love
Follow my dream and that's all of my love
I just want to feel, I've been feeling so numb
To think that I know how you're feeling is dumb
We're done, right from the start
I write from the heart, a light in the dark
They see that you're open and tear you apart
Now this is our letter, we sign it sincerely, Mark
Now this is our letter, we sign it sincerely, Mark