happy ever after

I swear we talk all the time, feel like an actor
I got no sense of time, what am I after?
Tell me that you meant it, wrong answer
Acting like I'll fix it, you got it backwards
You know we talked last night, what'd you do after?
I got no sense of time, lost in the laughter
Tell me that I'm worth it, make it matter
I wish that I was perfect, happy ever after

'Cause we talk all the time, feel like an actor
I got no sense of time, what am I after?
Tell me that you meant it, wrong answer
Acting like I'll fix it, you got it backwards
And when you called last night, I didn't answer
I got no sense of time, lost in the laughter
Tell me that I'm worth it, make it matter
I wish that I was perfect, happy ever after

And now the sadness turn to anger, what's the matter?
I served my love upon a platter, but that shit shattered
You notice how you mind my business, bitch, you're a witness
All the work I put into this, shit made me lifeless
Yeah, I see they try to judge me, but are they happy?
I know they're everything I could be, but I just wanna feel free
It feels like maybe it's not worth it, I'm just a bother
I wanna live my life happy ever after

'Cause we talk all the time, feel like an actor
I got no sense of time, what am I after?
Tell me that you meant it, wrong answer
Acting like I'll fix it, you got it backwards
And when you called last night, I didn't answer
I got no sense of time, lost in the laughter
Tell me that I'm worth it, make it matter
I wish that I was perfect, happy ever after

My mind drifts away to a vacant place
I wanna talk, but it's hard for me, I'm too afraid
I don't believe in myself, I think that I'm a waste
You left me broken, yeah, you left me in some disarray
I know you might think that I'm a fuck-up
I run my mouth, I can never seem to shut up
My feelings run away and I can't seem to catch up
I'm tryna leave all this stress and all this pressure
Try to build a wall, but it came crashing right down, I'm
Standing in my silence, I will not make a sound, no
All these thoughts go inside of my head, spin around, but
It's so hard to let my guard back up when it's down
No feeling in my chest, I can't feel my heart pulsing
You know I'm in pain, you already know I'm hurting
There's a hole inside of my heart as deep as the ocean
Putting on an effort so long, I'ma close the curtains

'Cause we talk all the time, feel like an actor
I got no sense of time, what am I after?
Tell me that you meant it, wrong answer
Acting like I'll fix it, you got it backwards
And when you called last night, I didn't answer
I got no sense of time, lost in the laughter
Tell me that I'm worth it, make it matter
I wish that I was perfect, happy ever after