future diary

(альбом: drinking under the streetlights - 2021)

Wilding, you're the only sun that shines in this town, yeah
Smiling (Hey), I don't wanna mess up somehow

But I'm holding you back and everybody sees it
Only got time for me on the weekends (On the weekends)
Life with you is all I ever knew
But I'll leave right now if it's best for you

In my future diary
I can see us flying free
But you got school and family
You got real shit happening (Happening)
I got shit I'm battling (I'm battling)
Getting pulled down like gravity (Gravity)
I just want more time with you (With you)
But it's okay, I'll lie to you (Lie to you)

'Til it goes on and on to the next thing
I'm too selfish, I can't help it
Stuck in my ways, not in my place
I can't wait 'til I'm covered in velvet
Feed me fantasies
'Cause it's one long trip down this balcony, uh
Baby, get mad at me
What's the rundown, enlighten me
Uh, uh, and lie to me
I don't like to hear it but the irony
If I had the dime for every casualty
Then I'd be dumb rich, still in agony

But I'm holding you back and everybody sees it
Only got time for me on the weekends (On the weekends)
Life with you is all I ever knew
But I'll leave right now if it's best for you

In my future diaries
I can see us flying free
But you got school and family
You got real shit happening

So I'll take fault
Keep it all inside, I'm one big vault

Yeah, I know you got dreams I don't wanna interfere with
Telling me you love me but I don't wanna hear it
See, I'm not great at goodbyes
Bad in your eyes
This your lullaby
And though if after this
Oh, you get pissed
I'd still put up a fight for you

In my future diary
I can see us flying free
But you got school and family
You got real shit happening
I got shit I'm battling
Getting pulled down like gravity
I just want more time with you
But it's okay, I'll lie to you

I'm one mistake after another
Don't really care, just hide, take cover
(Getting pulled down like gravity)
Everybody saying that I'm fine, all I do is whine
(But it's okay, I'll lie to you)