bummer

(альбом: teenage angst - 2020)

Looking in the mirror
My reflection got me triggered
You say that I'm looking pretty
I swear that I'm getting thinner
I think it must be obvious I
Can't hear the compliments
Just feeling shitty
Think that everyone's oblivious

I'm hoping by the summer
I won't be feeling like I do
Sometimes I wonder
Will it always be a bummer, yeah

There are times I wish that I was somebody else
Pretending I'm okay but shit I'm hating myself
Maybe I'm like everybody else
In between the smiles I'm here in hell
I'm hating myself
I'm hating myself
I'm hating myself

Seeing a psychiatrist
Hoping I can get this fixed
Ask if I'm okay
I say no not even a little bit
Feels like I'm inhibited
Permanent piece of shit
Please just tell me anyway
That everything will be okay

I'm hoping by the summer
I won't be feeling like I do
Sometimes I wonder
Will it always be a bummer, yeah

There are times I wish that I was somebody else
Pretending I'm okay but shit I'm hating myself
And maybe I'm like everybody else
In between the smiles I'm here in hell
I'm hating myself
I'm hating myself
I'm hating myself

They say I'm being too cautious
Sick too often
Maybe it's nothing
Change the topic
Till it's (all) forgotten
But I think it's common

I'm hating myself
I'm hating myself

There are times I wish that I was somebody else
Pretending I'm okay but shit I'm hating myself
And maybe I'm like everybody else
In between the smiles I'm here in hell
I'm hating myself
I'm hating myself